Venting For the first time in my life I found someone who truly loves me as much as i am her but our countries cut ties...

[Dinorun]

why cant anything be simple in this life
after 20 years of social isolation pain and accepting im not made to be loved for the first time in my life i met someone who just allignes with me in every way, our values, our personalities, our attractions, our ideas and tastes its so good.
i hate when her car breaks down or something at work happend and all i can do is be there for her on the phone
its so disheartning knowing i cant be there help fix it up, hug and confort her irl, meet her friends, celebrate everything with her and everything outside the screen

she gives so much meaning for my life, she broke my isolation, and she showed me i can be loved and choosen and i just love her so much i just want to be with her without risking.
if i could id visit her more
we spend every day video calling eachother for 2-5 hours and we even met up in a 3rd country and it was just perfect we were glued to eachother

my dream is for us to live toghether but it wont be posible for the next 3-4 years and even then who knows what will happen in the world until then, or moving our entire life to 3rd countries also isnt simple thing.
who knows if we can sustain ldr for so long, i also feel like its unfair to waste her 20s on a ldr when she can have so many options but on the other hand she is the one who chooses me everyday

i hate that that old politicians from both of our countries beefing with eachother because of ego and intrests we have no hate
it has nothing to do with us we just want to live our life..

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Being with you doesn't mean she is wasting her 20s. There is much more to life than relationships, and if she genuinely felt that way she probably wouldn't bother with you. You have someone that loves you and chooses you everyday despite such a distance, which is beautiful. And you are a very lucky person. The distance will definitely not be easy to emotionally deal with, I've been in long distance relationships before so I know how hard it is. But as long as you both have faith in each other to make it work out it definitely will. I am wishing the best for you.