mekhi
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- Jul 25, 2026
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Want to start by thanking you for clicking my post, and taking time to read my story.
Just a bit of background
I was born as an identical twin on valentines day. Both my sister and I were abused growing up as a result my twin sister committed suicide may of last year. I left my parents home and stayed with relatives then later joined the army only to be medically separated 6 months in. Completed basic training and everything too. Now I'm back home with my abusers and not much has changed. I really can't do this anymore and have been passively suicidal since the age of 10. Since my twin passed I have come up with plans, and ways out but get overwhelmed at the thought of failing an attempt.
My plan now is to purchase a shotgun as the legal age is 18 where I live (only rifles:shot guns allowed tho)
I would get a background check and place it in a duffel bag then uber back to my house. ( unfortunately I don't have a car) the gun would be in a gym bag as to not raise any concerns about what I'm carrying when I enter my house.
Then I would ctb perhaps sometime later. It could be a week, month who knows..
just nice to know I have a definitive plan to fall back on.
Where I get confused though is I have been Voluntarily hospitalized in the past year for mental health and diagnosed with an anxiety disorder.
Im not sure if that would prohibit me from purchasing a shot gun. Would I also need a guardian present? Would it be as easy as walking out there with the gun in my duffel bag if my background check is approved?
Any advice/ suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Again thank you for reading.
Just a bit of background
I was born as an identical twin on valentines day. Both my sister and I were abused growing up as a result my twin sister committed suicide may of last year. I left my parents home and stayed with relatives then later joined the army only to be medically separated 6 months in. Completed basic training and everything too. Now I'm back home with my abusers and not much has changed. I really can't do this anymore and have been passively suicidal since the age of 10. Since my twin passed I have come up with plans, and ways out but get overwhelmed at the thought of failing an attempt.
My plan now is to purchase a shotgun as the legal age is 18 where I live (only rifles:shot guns allowed tho)
I would get a background check and place it in a duffel bag then uber back to my house. ( unfortunately I don't have a car) the gun would be in a gym bag as to not raise any concerns about what I'm carrying when I enter my house.
Then I would ctb perhaps sometime later. It could be a week, month who knows..
just nice to know I have a definitive plan to fall back on.
Where I get confused though is I have been Voluntarily hospitalized in the past year for mental health and diagnosed with an anxiety disorder.
Im not sure if that would prohibit me from purchasing a shot gun. Would I also need a guardian present? Would it be as easy as walking out there with the gun in my duffel bag if my background check is approved?
Any advice/ suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Again thank you for reading.
