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scentoflavender

scentoflavender

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Mar 16, 2026
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finally got the courage to trash my blades ive been using to cut with for over a year now a few days ago, after i nearly slit my vein in my wrist during an episode, I lost a lot of blood. im proud of myself for finally making this step but god its been really hard the urges are so bad... i guess i just wanted to post this to share
 
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That's fantastic!
The first step is often the most difficult one, you have all the reasons to be proud of yourself! :heart:
I wish you all the best on your new path and stay strong! The road may be bumpy sometimes, but you managed this, you'll manage the rest as well! You got this!
 
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Mar 16, 2026
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That's fantastic!
The first step is often the most difficult one, you have all the reasons to be proud of yourself! :heart:
I wish you all the best on your new path and stay strong! The road may be bumpy sometimes, but you managed this, you'll manage the rest as well! You got this!
thank youuuu sm, its been really tough but im going to keep trying to push on
 
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Nov 7, 2024
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keep going pal full recover might be so close
 
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Jun 3, 2023
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The urges can be brutal can't they! I struggled with mine for a time, they are horrible. You've got this though, you are smashing it! I know for me, doing something else when I get the urge helps to make a routine of it. I am autistic though so maybe that's why it works haha. Like each time I get the urge, I'll take a shower, usually a cold one to kinda reset myself a bit. Nowadays I typically get the urge for cold showers instead.

Good luck <3 <3
 
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sinnrr-sistrr

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Apr 13, 2026
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Omggg I know how hard it is to throw your blades away so I'm reeeaaally proud of you for doing it!!! If I can give you some advice, you need to know that those urges may never really go away, but they can get better and less intrusive.

The best thing to do is try to make up another habit to manage the urges. That habit could be taking a cold shower like @Yuri440 , it could be taking a walk or playing a game or talking to a friend. Personally, I've recently started drawing cute things (which will usually involve many, many snails xD) on my arm/thigh whenever I get the urge.

Also, recovery isn't linear! You may (and if I can be frank with you, you'll probably) relapse in the future, and that is okay! The most important thing to keep in mind is that when you relapse you don't make it a habit again, that's the killer! As long as you're able to cut short your relapses and don't give up, you'll be allllright!

Good luck!! We're in this together okay?
 
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Praestat_Mori

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May 21, 2023
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I'm proud of you! I wish you all the best! :heart:
 
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flowerbomb

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Wow, this is a very big step! You did great!! đź«‚
 
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I had seen some of your other posts before, I'm really glad you've taken this step:D
 
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The Disqualified

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Feb 4, 2023
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finally got the courage to trash my blades ive been using to cut with for over a year now a few days ago, after i nearly slit my vein in my wrist during an episode, I lost a lot of blood. im proud of myself for finally making this step but god its been really hard the urges are so bad... i guess i just wanted to post this to share
I am proud of you.
I really feel sorry you went through that. No human being should be lead to this. I hope you improve and never suffer this again. Here if you wish to talk and need support. Sending warm virtual hugs.
 

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