Sleeper System
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- May 5, 2022
- 936
I have to be at work in 7 hours. I wish I fell asleep and never woke up.
I know that it wont happen though. I'm also not even ready for dying.
None of my affairs are in order as they say. So it would be an unorganized departure.
I think most deaths are. No one is ever ready to die out of nowhere. Even with a will, it's still messy.
Every decision i've ever made has lead me to this point in my life and i'm so unhappy.
I told myself that I would accept whatever the outcome because I knew it would be like this...
but I didn't think it would emotionally destroy me so deeply.
I'll try to sleep for a few hours. I'm shedding tears as I write this dreading that I have to keep living another day.
Bills gotta get paid. I have to have a place to sleep. I have to have food. Ugh. When will this medicore existence be done.
Gnight.
I know that it wont happen though. I'm also not even ready for dying.
None of my affairs are in order as they say. So it would be an unorganized departure.
I think most deaths are. No one is ever ready to die out of nowhere. Even with a will, it's still messy.
Every decision i've ever made has lead me to this point in my life and i'm so unhappy.
I told myself that I would accept whatever the outcome because I knew it would be like this...
but I didn't think it would emotionally destroy me so deeply.
I'll try to sleep for a few hours. I'm shedding tears as I write this dreading that I have to keep living another day.
Bills gotta get paid. I have to have a place to sleep. I have to have food. Ugh. When will this medicore existence be done.
Gnight.
