Feelings now that I've chosen a method and my time is soon approaching

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SN coming in the mail soon.

I'm aware I may get anxious when the actual time comes but as of now, I feel literally nothing. I'm not excited but I'm not sad either.

I've had previous attempts (benzo ods, which I now know is a non-method) but none of them were planned, this one is.

Everything just feels so right. The method. The fact that I'm not even going through an episode but still wanna end it asap.

I've always known I'd die of suicide, but didn't have the tools or knowledge.Wish I found this site years ago.

Glad my mind is now at peace, soon enough my body will be too!

Havent decided if I'll be making a goodbye post yet, I may be attempting with no AE so maybe it's useful for other people who also can't seem to get their hands on it.
Be sure to tell me if this is something that interests you!

 

[tiltedcompass]

I wish you good luck and peace.
Remember to not rush it in case your SI starts acting up when the time comes, calm down and make your choice. We'll be here no matter what.

The goodbye post would be interesting to read, personally I don't have a specific method in mind but others might find it useful as you said.