I already did my part keeping up the numbers for marriages marriages in your early 20s quickly ending in divorce, now I think I'll do my part for the male suicide numbers.
I come from a broken home with a hugely abusive asshole of a father and I've been suicidal my entire life (probably depressed too, but I've only been officially diagnosed less than a year ago). It's always been rough, but at times it's been a little easier. I came to the same university city as my high school girlfriend and we got married 3 years after. During my relationship with her I can say was the only time I felt truly, genuinely happy in my life. No more parents or other assholes in my life to cause misery, just my GF/wife and me. But as suffering is eternal and happiness is merely temporary, last August we broke up and we got divorced some months later. I had invested so much of myself in that relationship and I trusted her so completely that I am now a broken man and I feel I got nothing left.
I'm fat as fuck because I am a stress-eater and this doesn't sit well with my depression, I hate my body and the way I look because of it and it makes me not want to go out at all. I drove away almost all my friends during college as I had limited time 'cause I had to work full-time to support both myself and my GF/wife through college because our parents are shit people so now I'm alone as fuck. I tried getting cats to help with loneliness as I am a huge animal lover but turns out 1 single mega-depressed dude can't raise 3 kittens well so now they've become devils that I hate and I can't find anywhere else that I can give them. I tried buying my way out of my feelings and now I'm in pretty big debt.
I was sick for the past month and being weak and alone in my post-divorce apartment with 3 cats that I hate broke me. I feel like a huge fuck-up, I can't find satisfaction in doing anything at all and I can't bring myself to care about anything enough to make me want to keep living like I've done so far. I have no hope that things will improve even though, paradoxically, I can see ways of them improving. I'm just done struggling imensely for every single breadcrumb of happiness I can get. Profesionally, things are looking great for me and I'm at a point where I could realistically jump to a great position, both in the actual work and in pay, but I can't even bring myself to want to work anymore (for 2 weeks now I've just played video games during work hours) and being good at work is what kept me going for a few of these past months. A few weeks ago I was set on hanging myself but my therapist managed to talk me out of it because I was terrified of the method.
On a completely unrelated note, does anyone know why Proton mail says D's email address given in the PPH doesn't exist? Is there another source?
I come from a broken home with a hugely abusive asshole of a father and I've been suicidal my entire life (probably depressed too, but I've only been officially diagnosed less than a year ago). It's always been rough, but at times it's been a little easier. I came to the same university city as my high school girlfriend and we got married 3 years after. During my relationship with her I can say was the only time I felt truly, genuinely happy in my life. No more parents or other assholes in my life to cause misery, just my GF/wife and me. But as suffering is eternal and happiness is merely temporary, last August we broke up and we got divorced some months later. I had invested so much of myself in that relationship and I trusted her so completely that I am now a broken man and I feel I got nothing left.
I'm fat as fuck because I am a stress-eater and this doesn't sit well with my depression, I hate my body and the way I look because of it and it makes me not want to go out at all. I drove away almost all my friends during college as I had limited time 'cause I had to work full-time to support both myself and my GF/wife through college because our parents are shit people so now I'm alone as fuck. I tried getting cats to help with loneliness as I am a huge animal lover but turns out 1 single mega-depressed dude can't raise 3 kittens well so now they've become devils that I hate and I can't find anywhere else that I can give them. I tried buying my way out of my feelings and now I'm in pretty big debt.
I was sick for the past month and being weak and alone in my post-divorce apartment with 3 cats that I hate broke me. I feel like a huge fuck-up, I can't find satisfaction in doing anything at all and I can't bring myself to care about anything enough to make me want to keep living like I've done so far. I have no hope that things will improve even though, paradoxically, I can see ways of them improving. I'm just done struggling imensely for every single breadcrumb of happiness I can get. Profesionally, things are looking great for me and I'm at a point where I could realistically jump to a great position, both in the actual work and in pay, but I can't even bring myself to want to work anymore (for 2 weeks now I've just played video games during work hours) and being good at work is what kept me going for a few of these past months. A few weeks ago I was set on hanging myself but my therapist managed to talk me out of it because I was terrified of the method.
On a completely unrelated note, does anyone know why Proton mail says D's email address given in the PPH doesn't exist? Is there another source?
