Discussion Feeling Like A Non-Person

[CentreMid]

I don't feel like a person, or a human for that matter. I feel like I'm something else observing actual humans, and I'm just here, piloting a meat suit, with no clue how to actually be a person, let alone a decent one. I feel like a complete fly on the wall to society, always watching and observing, but never truly participating, even if I'm actually doing something like getting groceries or walking home. Everything seems so surreal and a bit absurd, the way life just happens, the way everyone else around me just knows how to be human, while I... well... don't.

I know this is a very bad description of how I'm feeling, and I apologize if none of this makes any sense, but for anyone who can make any sort of sense out of my words, do you feel like this too?

 

[AllFoxedOut]

It's a disconnected feeling. Others just know "how to be it", but whenever I share this feeling with others everyone says everyone is faking it. But if that were true why am I ordering SN? Practising slipknots? Stuck in bed?

I hope I understood your words and properly related to you.

 

[BBY]

I know what you're talking about. Everything feels like so much but also nothing? It's like playing a video game but everything you do somehow has so much more impact and you have no clear route to go. I often find myself questioning why I act the way I do or why others do what they do. It is truly strange to be alive, especially when it only feels like existing.

 

[CentreMid]

It's a disconnected feeling. Others just know "how to be it", but whenever I share this feeling with others everyone says everyone is faking it. But if that were true why am I ordering SN? Practising slipknots? Stuck in bed?

I hope I understood your words and properly related to you.

You did, and I agree with you, especially with the "everyone's faking it" part. Like if that were truly the case, why do I still feel so... unreal? Even if everyone is faking it, there still seems to be some sort of collective understanding on how to be a person that I'm missing out on.

I know what you're talking about. Everything feels like so much but also nothing? It's like playing a video game but everything you do somehow has so much more impact and you have no clear route to go. I often find myself questioning why I act the way I do or why others do what they do. It is truly strange to be alive, especially when it only feels like existing.

That is certainly an element of it, yes! Humans are bizzare (and very, very stupid, myself included haha), and the way they do things and the way they just instinctively know how to exist just baffles me.

 

[AllFoxedOut]

You did, and I agree with you, especially with the "everyone's faking it" part. Like if that were truly the case, why do I still feel so... unreal? Even if everyone is faking it, there still seems to be some sort of collective understanding on how to be a person that I'm out on.

Yes, exactly. I go outside to my appointments and feel like a zombie walking the streets. I went to school and felt like an alien. I'm sick of this feeling and I'm sure you are too.

 

[animetal]

This is exactly how I feel. My whole life I kinda felt so disconnected in what it meant to be a person.

 

[Konnsz]

I feel in a similar way, i can't picture myself on doing stuff humans do, like socializing, loving, being loved, having sex.

I feel so disconnected in my social circle and in life in general.

I feel something is off when I'm actually experiencing human stuff, like I'm not supposed to be there, like I don't deserve it aswell.

You are not alone

 

[JJMaynard97]

I don't feel like a person, or a human for that matter. I feel like I'm something else observing actual humans, and I'm just here, piloting a meat suit, with no clue how to actually be a person, let alone a decent one. I feel like a complete fly on the wall to society, always watching and observing, but never truly participating, even if I'm actually doing something like getting groceries or walking home. Everything seems so surreal and a bit absurd, the way life just happens, the way everyone else around me just knows how to be human, while I... well... don't.

I know this is a very bad description of how I'm feeling, and I apologize if none of this makes any sense, but for anyone who can make any sort of sense out of my words, do you feel like this too?

I understand what your feeling, I feel I'm a shell of a person, everyday is like Auto pilot and I don't wanna continue it anymore. I'm not a person, I just a shell of what could have been. I hope you find some sort of relief and comfort. Respect to you

 

[Walilamdzii]

Depersonalisation.

 

[biboty]

I can't interact like a normal person and I find it very frustrating, it's actually one of the reasons I want to ctb