Venting feeling helpless once again

[Lilmeowssi]

Hey~

I am writing this post in order not to feel so damn alone with my problems anymore.
I feel soooo helpless right now. I don’t want to live but I am too much of a coward to just go die.
The last few months have been very nice for me. I got a bf and he made me feel very happy. Thought maybe these thoughts about suicide wouldn’t come back now that I’m so “happy”.
And then they just came back.
I can’t concentrate nor sleep well anymore. I really just want to die and if I wouldn’t be such a stupid coward then I would be long gone.

 

[Ghost2211]

I’m sorry to hear you‘re struggling so much. You’re not a coward. Living and dying are both scary.

 

[Desi]

If that's any help, I feel just like you. Ctb is mindblowingly hard but keeping on living and suffering is very scary. We're all caught between a rock and a hard place.
you're not a coward, it's hard for everybody, really.

 

[botanormal]

Sometimes even things that are supposed to make us 'happy' aren't enough to stop these feelings. Suicidal thoughts are complicated, even somebody who has the 'perfect' life can get them, and although it does suck, it is completely valid, and doesn't make you stupid nor a coward. It just makes you human. I'm sorry you feel so helpless right now, I really hope things will turn out the way you want them to. You're not alone, okay? We're all here with you, so if you ever need to talk don't feel bad about reaching out. Good luck with everything.

 

[AutoTap]

If it helps I also feel hopeless and miserable

 

[justanotherstar]

I’m glad you posted. You are not alone. Keep talking