feeling afraid ctb today

[raz-al-gul]

i feel very afraid and the thought of my mom seeing my body keeps running thru my mind

 

[Julgran]

i feel very afraid and the thought of my mom seeing my body keeps running thru my mind

Are you feeling responsible for you mom's potential reaction if you do decide to end your life..? Are you two living together..?

Suicidal thoughts are never easy to contemplate. See this as your first step into realizing that life might not be exactly what it was cut out to be. After this, you may return to "normal" and have a good life, or you may stay here and gather more wisdom from the members here, who may be in a similar situation to yours.

I wish that you, at least, will have a valuable stay here

 

[raz-al-gul]

Are you feeling responsible for you mom's potential reaction if you do decide to end your life..? Are you two living together..?

Suicidal thoughts are never easy to contemplate. See this as your first step into realizing that life might not be exactly what it was cut out to be. After this, you may return to "normal" and have a good life, or you may stay here and gather more wisdom from the members here, who may be in a similar situation to yours.

I wish that you, at least, will have a valuable stay here

No i live in a college dorm in another state. Have a disease(dont waant to disclose) and dont have it in me to continue with the disease

 

[Julgran]

No i live in a college dorm in another state. Have a disease(dont waant to disclose) and dont have it in me to continue with the disease

This seems to be a difficult situation for you, since you - on the one hand - could keep living with your disease, since you are living in a dorm - but, on the other hand, you don't seem to wish to keep living.

Without question, I'm unable to say what you should do. If you could fine some way forwards in your life, you may mant to pursue that goal. Otherwise, not living is always an option - the decision is up to you.

 

[raz-al-gul]

This seems to be a difficult situation for you, since you - on the one hand - could keep living with your disease, since you are living in a dorm - but, on the other hand, you don't seem to wish to keep living.

Without question, I'm unable to say what you should do. If you could fine some way forwards in your life, you may mant to pursue that goal. Otherwise, not living is always an option - the decision is up to you.

I have had this disease since 2019 and it has progressed a lot. I love my mom a lot and wish her all the hapiness in the world. But every day is agony. And now iam so fing afraid

 

[Julgran]

I have had this disease since 2019 and it has progressed a lot. I love my mom a lot and wish her all the hapiness in the world. But every day is agony. And now iam so fing afraid

I see! Are you afraid that your disease will worsen somehow, or that it will somehow ruin your future life...?

 

[FuneralCry]

It is understandable having fears associated with ctb. After all, leaving this world can be very difficult. In an ideal world there would be the option of euthanasia so people wouldn't have to be shocked by finding a dead body, it's unfair how the society doesn't allow this for people. It must be really tiring what you have to endure and I get that it's awful when life just gets worse, it's so horrifying how the human body can torture us with diseases.
I hope that you find freedom from this cruel existence.

 

[CarpeJugulum]

if you did drink it, i hope it was quick

 

[theboy]

Yes, is the SI