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schatzbunny

schatzbunny

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Nov 21, 2025
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i plan on ctb in december hopefully. i have a friend who's giving me her apartment keys as she will go to her hometown for winter break. her apartment is on the 17th floor so 165+ feet and 50+ meters and when she is not there i plan on going there to jump. i will drink a little bit of vodka to disinhibit myself. i am thinking of jumping backwards (basically i will face the apartment not be looking down directly)
i also plan on doing it at night so there are no people outside whom i might hit. i will go see her apartment once before the jump to make sure i wont hit anything on the way down and unfortunately survive. is there anything i should keep in mind? i know si will be a pain but i read a lot on how you lose consciousness immediately after hitting the ground and during the fall the brain goes into shock and dissociates so that is making me not as scared of jumping to my death.
below is not the exact building but pretty similar, again i will jump from 17th floor not this 10th
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Crow_88

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Seems like you have it pretty thought out. Silly question, but does she know what you are going to do there?
 
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schatzbunny

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Seems like you have it pretty thought out. Silly question, but does she know what you are going to do there?
no 😭 i plan on leaving her a note apologising for it being her apartment. but i don't think she will hold it against me considering she knows what im going through
 
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carfemtanyl

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Nov 18, 2025
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look at where you will land and make sure that it is a hard surface like concrete and not something like a bush or grass
 
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no 😭 i plan on leaving her a note apologising for it being her apartment. but i don't think she will hold it against me considering she knows what im going through
Okay. Makes sense!
 
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