fears of using a gun to ctb

[nood11]

My main fears with using a gun for suicide are:
1. What will it be like to have an explosion go off in my head and have a piece of metal rip through my brain? In other words what will the experience be like to shoot myself in the head?
2. Should I use a full metal jacket round or hollow point? A hollow point will cause a potential head explosion.
3. What if it fails and I'm left a vegetable?
4. What if there is a hell and I go there forever?
5. What will the dying process be like?

 

[Huntfish34]

I'm Right there with you on everything you stated. Often wondered what may happen/ feel like..... But with a big enough caliber and proper placement.... I don't " believe " you will Know any different, just maybe.... a boom and then the lights go out. ( not fading like with SN, other methods.. )

Gunshot is my Main and preferred method because of Exactly that.... no time wondering or hurting, pain, w/e. Full metal or Hollow should be fine if the bullet/ shell is sizable enough to get the job done.

A hell and left there forever..?.. Thats one of my Biggest problems, more than failing or anything else. I hope there isn't, I Pray there isnt..

The whole process.... Good question, I'm always wondering how it will all unfold.. Scary, terrifying, maybe - ? But I just Imagine it will All be over so fckn fast that I just Have to accept. Have to stop fighting like a damn mad man, and just Let it go.

Easier Said than Done though right ? Fck..... fck.. Idk.. just my. 02.

Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen. Godspeed. ♥