Fear

[drmihilo]

I'm 12 hours away from ctb. I'm very afraid. Guilt. Afraid there will be something after death. Afraid when I imagine my mother's tears. I try to look at it coldly, but I can't. I realize I can't go on living. In general, the instinct of self-preservation kicks in....

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is like the survival instinct exists just to prolong suffering and keep one trapped here but anyway I wish you the best with your plans, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.