Fear of God

[lonerclown666]

Im afraid if i CTB God will would judge me and send me to Hell i think i deserved it and Hell will be better than nothingness
Im not religious but when I think of CTB i think that God will be angry to me

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

If you fear god then you would know he put you in hell already

You die you just change versions

 

[jimmy7754]

We are in hell already.

 

[ThePaleWhiteLight]

"For the living know that they shall die: but the dead know not any thing, neither have they any more a reward; for the memory of them is forgotten. "

- Ecclesiastes 9:5

 

[itllbeover]

I share the same fear. I hope to get to a point where I don't care about the possibility of a God nor hell.

 

[Johnhawk_Down]

Im afraid if i CTB God will would judge me and send me to Hell i think i deserved it and Hell will be better than nothingness
Im not religious but when I think of CTB i think that God will be angry to me

God is probably too impersonal to care or is evil, I mean if it made the universe and the world in which we live and it is a reflection of them, we'll need i say more, on earth everything eats everything, in space, super massive black holes, quasars etc, this world and the universe could be a brick in the cosmic wall called hell. If you have something to live for I wouldn't give the mo-fo the satisfaction

 

[Darkover]

no god of mine would enslave me in flesh and blood forced me to exist eat shit drink piss and sleep, in a shithole and hellhole, there's no god and if there was a god he's not much of a god more like the shittest god that ever existed, all this stuff is here in this universe and it just sits there waiting to be used, it's a pointless existance much like the universe itself pointless.

 

[Someone123]

Im afraid if i CTB God will would judge me and send me to Hell i think i deserved it and Hell will be better than nothingness
Im not religious but when I think of CTB i think that God will be angry to me

From desciptions I have heard of helol it is way worse than nothingness. Would a caring god really punish a person further for wanting to stop their pain? I hope not.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I'm not worried, this life is so bad, I feel zero guilt about hating it and wanting out. If the so-called creator wants to punish me for quitting his abysmal game, then there's nothing I can do. Threatening me doesn't make this existence any more tolerable, it just compounds the shittiness of it.

 

[Al_stargate]

I fear judgment as well but my situation is mainly caused by others but I have to suffer. How is that fair. Quality of my life has gone to shit and I can't live this way. Hope God has some discrepancies and understanding for the situation and doesn't judge me too harshly. I'm not killing myself because of defiance, I just can't take it no more.

 

[unkuto]

People who are looking for exit on this forum are already living in hell. If God does exist and you get in hell for killing yourself why not to try one hell for another with hope that it's not going to be as bad?

 

[bad luck]

Catharism - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

Cosmology[edit]

Cathar cosmology identified two twin, opposing deities. The first was a good God, portrayed in the New Testament and creator of the spirit, while the second was an evil God, depicted in the Old Testament and creator of matter and the physical world.[22]​ The latter, often called Rex Mundi ("King of the World"),[23]​ was identified as the God of Judaism,[22]​ and was also either conflated with Satan or considered Satan's father, creator or seducer.[6]​ They addressed the problem of evil by stating that the good God's power to do good was limited by the evil God's works and vice versa

¿Quién ha matado más según la Biblia, Dios o Satanás?

Un análisis de la cantidad de muertes provocadas que hay en la Biblia nos aclara quién es el mayor asesino del libro entre Dios y Satanás.

hipertextual.com

Según los rigurosos cálculos de Steve Wells, sin tener en cuenta las masacres del diluvio universal, de Sodoma y Gomorra y de los primogénitos egipcios, otras plagas, hambrunas y demás, sino solamente aquellas cuyos números concretos están en la Biblia, Dios se ha cargado a 2.476.633 personas en 135 episodios violentos distintos, que suben a 2.821.364 en 158 ocasiones con los textos deuterocanónicos, o sea, los pasajes del Antiguo Testamento aceptados por la Iglesia Católica y la de los cristianos ortodoxos pero no por los creyentes de las ramas protestantes ni por los judíos.

Traducción:

According to the rigorous calculations of Steve Wells, without taking into account the massacres of the universal flood, of Sodom and Gomorrah and of the firstborn Egyptians, other plagues, famines and others, but only those whose specific numbers are in the Bible, God has killed to 2,476,633 people in 135 different violent episodes, which rise to 2,821,364 in 158 occasions with the deuterocanonical texts, that is, the passages of the Old Testament accepted by the Catholic Church and that of the Orthodox Christians but not by the believers of the Protestant branches nor by the Jews.

Biblical characters who committed suicide: Abimelech, Samson, King Saul, Saul's Squire, Ahithophel, Zimri, Judas...

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

"For the living know that they shall die: but the dead know not any thing, neither have they any more a reward; for the memory of them is forgotten. "

- Ecclesiastes 9:5

"Enjoy life with your beloved wife all the days of the fleeting life that God has given you under the sun—all your fleeting days."

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not believe that there is a God, or that there is anything after death. I only fear this life as there is no limit as to how bad things can get and how much we can suffer. I believe that death is true peace and freedom from all pain, we simply cease to exist and become nothing. Life is completely meaningless, it is just a pointless experience that we go through for the sake of it. Once we lose consciousness that is it for us. Death comforts me a lot, it is all I want.

 

[bad luck]

"Enjoy life with your beloved wife all the days of the fleeting life that God has given you under the sun—all your fleeting days."

In medieval biblical and canonical texts you can find these quotes. Let him now remember Maximus Martyr, Ecclesiastes and other books.

The woman is an animal with long hair and short thoughts; Because of him we die; wild beast, necessary evil, request for a seat, voluntary rija (tumor), storm of the house, enemy of friendship,

 

[Pain In The Ass]

I fear waking up in a simulation tank of some sort, and all this was just a simulation experiment, and I wake up to some professor pulling wires out of my head, asking me how it went, and telling me I was only under for an hour, and I actually live on a planet called X1.135-2, and my name's Henry - I'll fuckin' sue 'em!

 

[symphony]

My thought personally is that it's impossible to know what comes next and any possible afterlife you can imagine is just as unlikely (with, in my opinion, "nothingness" and an end to conscious existence altogether being by far most likely), and thus it would be irrational to make decisions about life and death based on belief in or fear of a certain type of afterlife. Sure, maybe I'm wrong and there is a Hell, but how should I be expected to know and prepare for that out of all possible afterlives? If I ended up in Hell and looked back in hindsight at my decision to CTB, I would maintain that it was a rational choice given that I definitionally couldn't have known that I'd end up in Hell.

 

[Rational man]

There is no god, or bearded bastard waiting to judge us. He would be a very busy entity judging the thousands that die each hour of every day. The only judgement comes from people around us and the usual hypocrites to boot. God is cosmic, our creator and we return to cosmic dust once more.

 

[Ticket 2 Heaven]

We are in hell already.

We are not in Hell. Hell is the absence of everything good. It is located in the center of the Earth.

 

[Forever Sleep]

no god of mine would enslave me in flesh and blood forced me to exist eat shit drink piss and sleep, in a shithole and hellhole, there's no god and if there was a god he's not much of a god more like the shittest god that ever existed, all this stuff is here in this universe and it just sits there waiting to be used, it's a pointless existance much like the universe itself pointless.

While I completely agree with your description, I feel like it only works if God is imaginary- ie the only power he/ she/ it has is the power we give it. Then, it's absolutely possible to reject it without any repercussions.

I hope with all my heart you're right because if you're not and God is real- I'm certain he/ she/ it is a sadistic narcissist and saying you don't like how they run things and don't even believe in them likely won't do much good.

I just hope to God- for want of a better phrase that there is indeed nothing because I can't see the God that created this earth playing fair or being merciful.

 

[lifeORdeath]

I fear judgment as well but my situation is mainly caused by others but I have to suffer. How is that fair. Quality of my life has gone to shit and I can't live this way. Hope God has some discrepancies and understanding for the situation and doesn't judge me too harshly. I'm not killing myself because of defiance, I just can't take it no more.

Im afraid if i CTB God will would judge me and send me to Hell i think i deserved it and Hell will be better than nothingness
Im not religious but when I think of CTB i think that God will be angry to me

I consider myself a Christian. Not Catholic. A lot of folks probably think oh no, not one of these guys.

I am not what I would consider religious or a bigot. I believe in what I've seen and also have read. I don't judge others for what they believe or don't believe, or what they choose. I can only speak on my account and My experience.

But I do believe God doesn't want us to kill ourselves and would not be happy with us.

On the flipside, I do believe if we are once saved that we are always saved.

Even in our time of weakness and if we take our life, that if we're saved, then the debt has been paid already and nothing can separate us. This is the only peace I find in the thought of leaving early, against His will.

I still will have to face my Creator. I will still feel bad about it and grieve and know I messed up a lot in my life and knew better. And also took my own life which is the ultimate thing.

He knows I'm sick in the head and what I feel. Only he knows what really going on in me, when the rest of the folks can guess and make assumptions and let criticize or scorn me.

It sucks that I am feeling the way I do and at this point and have actually tried. He knows I want to stay and be, but he also knows I can't handle it if things go South. I believe I've gone too far.

I took a lot he gave me for granted. My life kind of sucked as a kid and I got through it without being a Christian knowing him. He saved me from myself and gave me a life. And I chucked it back at Him many times.

I just hope there is more mercy in store. And he takes care of my family and doesn't punish them for my wrongs.

But who knows what will happen. I just have many days that I give up and have no hope anymore and even if forgiven, I may still has consequences to pay. I feel I am going against Him.. I just can't stop the racing thoughts, and I slip further daily into despair.

I wish I could share more without being too personal. I also wish I could go back in time but time machines are only real in the movies.