Welcome.
Post and chat for a while.
What is your method?
What has driven you to this resolution?
I can't stand the sadness, the emptyness and the absurdity of being alive when I don't find any sense to it anymore.
I red about the night night method on this forum, and it seems a peaceful way to go.
You are human being. That is perfectly normal to feel. I have additional fear of scarring and destroying lives of my parents.
Hurting the people I love is another thing that holds me back. I am waiting this idea to be less unbearable that being alive.
Understandable fear.
This is where a little planning really helps. Each method has different criteria for success and different points that can cause failure.
I feel you both, the idea of horrible consequences of a failing attempt paralyses me.
But what do you mean by planning? I red a lot here about experiences before real attempts. How can people have the bravery to try methods before a real attempt?
Going against our natural will to live is a hell of a thing and the fear associated with that is natural. I understand completely what your going through because I am in the same position. I have conditioned myself lately to have a loaded firearm to my head with pressure on the trigger but that last push is not easy hence why I am posting. Whatever you decide to do please research it so you don't suffer more then you already are and I also found that researching a preferred method has eased the fear somewhat but thats just me.
I wish you didn't have to feel like this nor anyone on this website but here we are sadly. I hope you have good day nonetheless.
This method was appealing to me until I red how easy it is to miss and hurt yourself very bad instead of dying, and just make it worst. However it is not easy to get a firearm in my country, so I let down this fantasy of mine. I am not putting down nor judging your choice by the way.
Going against our natural will to live is a hell of a thing and the fear associated with that is natural. I understand completely what your going through because I am in the same position. I have conditioned myself lately to have a loaded firearm to my head with pressure on the trigger but that last push is not easy hence why I am posting. Whatever you decide to do please research it so you don't suffer more then you already are and I also found that researching a preferred method has eased the fear somewhat but thats just me.
I wish you didn't have to feel like this nor anyone on this website but here we are sadly. I hope you have good day nonetheless.
This method was appealing to me until I red how easy it is to miss and hurt yourself very bad instead of dying, and just make it worst. However it is not easy to get a firearm in my country, so I let down this fantasy of mine. I am not putting down nor judging your choice by the way.
I didnt expect so much people to pass by this post.
Thanks for sharing. I hope everyone here will find the will and means to get better.
I am lucky and glad to have people in my surrounding I can talk to about all that, but however, they can't totally relate, and therefore I can't tell them how close I am to kill myself.
I feel a bit released posting here.
