Venting Fear of being patronized

[Dandelion's]

My biggest fear in life is being patronized after CTB. I hate the idea that people are gonna state things like: I was overtaken by thoughts that weren't true, that I wasn't fit to make the decision because of mental illness, that my pain will just be reduced to me being a sensitive woman, that my death caused supposed pain to the same people that caused mine, that I CTB because of encouragement by evil people on a forum, rather then being a mentally ill person incapable of living a life of quality, that it was all due to something as meaningless as a few insults.

This is the only reason I hesitated to already ctb (roughly 11 attempts most failed because of this and SI)
Does anyone on here feel similar to this?

 

[PainThreshold]

No, if anything. Everyone will hate me more, because religion and stuff. They don't believe in any mental health shit, and neither do I.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

Yes, even though I didn't even suffer from mental illness. It's how people tend to like to frame these things though, regardless of the reason.

 

[coolcow1289]

Who cares how people rationalize it afterwards. I won't be here and it's not my problem.

 

[Dandelion's]

Who cares how people rationalize it afterwards. I won't be here and it's not my problem.

I know that, I just care to much about what people think of me. I hate them and know there is no afterlife but it's just kind of natural like an instinct