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Ladyybugged

Ladyybugged

𝑺𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒓 <3
Oct 21, 2025
63
31st October.

Today's the day.
I've got all the equipment i'll need.
Been looking forward to this for a while now.
Guess i always knew that this was inevitable.

Just wanna stop by and say my goodbye. I first stumbled upon SaSu around 3 years ago, and made an account but was mostly a lurker back then.
Everyone i've talked to or interacted with here has been nothing but warm and friendly, a community as non-judgemental as this is a rare sight.

My name is Sahar, i'm 19. And i'll be using a helium exit bag to CTB in the evening today.

Knowing i'm about to die in a few hours does bring me a sort of comfort, along with the fear & anxiousness of my attempt failing.
I'm still remorseful that my family will have to find my body, but i guess i can't do anything to change that, as i have no other option left but to CTB in my room. This has been a long time coming for me, and losing the love of my life the way i did was the final straw. I really hope this works, i'm fucking exhausted and i can't take it anymore.

I don't know if i believe in heaven or hell.
But all i wish for is that after my death, my consciousness is allowed to watch over all the people i've ever loved.

I've loved being a part of SaSu, even if it was for a short time.
To anyone here that has personally reached out to me, thank you for so much for doing so.
It was nice talking to you.

I wish you guys the best in whatever you choose.
And i hope life is much more kinder to you.

Farewell <3

~S
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imontheloose

imontheloose

Aspiring corpse
Jan 15, 2025
95
Goodbye, love. I wish you peace; I hope to join you soon.
 
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peewee

Experienced
Oct 16, 2025
265
hey lovely im so sorry to hear this...im sorry youve been pushed to this point, i relate so much. i am actually ctb today as well, i also lost the love of my life which is why im here....sending so much love
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
228
Goodbye <3. I'll miss seeing you around, but I really hope you find the peace you're looking for. Many of us aren't far behind you. Good luck on your journey, Sahar 🫂
hey lovely im so sorry to hear this...im sorry youve been pushed to this point, i relate so much. i am actually ctb today as well, i also lost the love of my life which is why im here....sending so much love
Wishing you peace as well
 
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setspiritfree

Student
Oct 19, 2025
149
31st October.

Today's the day.
I've got all the equipment i'll need.
Been looking forward to this for a while now.
Guess i always knew that this was inevitable.

Just wanna stop by and say my goodbye. I first stumbled upon SaSu around 3 years ago, and made an account but was mostly a lurker back then.
Everyone i've talked to or interacted with here has been nothing but warm and friendly, a community as non-judgemental as this is a rare sight.

My name is Sahar, i'm 19. And i'll be using a helium exit bag to CTB in the evening today.

Knowing i'm about to die in a few hours does bring me a sort of comfort, along with the fear & anxiousness of my attempt failing.
I'm still remorseful that my family will have to find my body, but i guess i can't do anything to change that, as i have no other option left but to CTB in my room. This has been a long time coming for me, and losing the love of my life the way i did was the final straw. I really hope this works, i'm fucking exhausted and i can't take it anymore.

I don't know if i believe in heaven or hell.
But all i wish for is that after my death, my consciousness is allowed to watch over all the people i've ever loved.

I've loved being a part of SaSu, even if it was for a short time.
To anyone here that has personally reached out to me, thank you for so much for doing so.
It was nice talking to you.

I wish you guys the best in whatever you choose.
And i hope life is much more kinder to you.

Farewell <3

~S
🐞
I am literally crying for you now
I thought I would cry for myself but I am in tears knowing your pain
Did you know that tears of sadness taste different than tears of joy? (Look it up) I don't think it is science I think it is a creator who will welcome us to watch over our loved ones as you wish. I just wanted to share that with you.
Did you know that tears of sadness taste different than tears of joy? Look it up. I don't think that is science I think it is a creator who will allow us to watch over the ones we love once we are gone. Just wanted you to know that.
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Ch4in3dcr0w

Ch4in3dcr0w

The crow of hopelessness and despair
Jun 21, 2025
377
Wishing you peace
 
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rs929

Warlock
Dec 18, 2020
748
I don't know your story but I think 19 years old is a bit too soon to lose all hope. You sound articulated and you were intelligent enough to put together an exit bag. It is too difficult for me, I don't know where to start with.
I'm not trying to talk you out of it, because I don't know the exact pain you're going through, but I'm just afraid you don't have the support you need to keep going through and get better. You're just beginning to live.
I wish you peace if this is what you really want.
 
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Riven

Riven

Member
Oct 24, 2025
21
Goodbye, I wish you the best :)
 
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setspiritfree

Student
Oct 19, 2025
149
I don't know what to say. I don't want you to go but I want you peace. I didn't know it would be this hard for someone I have only seen online.
 
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homeboundcripple

homeboundcripple

Wanderer
Jun 6, 2025
251
All the best sahar 🙏
 
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MissAbyss

MissAbyss

⋆𐙚❅*°⋆❆.ೃ࿔༻˚𖠰˚༺࿔.ೃ❆⋆°*❅𐙚⋆
Jul 20, 2025
448
✨️ Sahar, I wish you eternal peace 🕊
 
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nobodycaresaboutme

nobodycaresaboutme

maybe my English kinda sucks
Jun 30, 2025
621
I'm truly sorry your life has come to this point. I wish you the best. Goodbye Sahar🫂
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,728
Love and universal peace to you.

Always around if changes happen.

Walter
 
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Firefly.Forest

Firefly.Forest

Student
Aug 28, 2025
183
Sahar, Our paths have not crossed - I wish you peace in your journey.
 
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CTB Dream

CTB Dream

Injury damage disabl hard talk no argu make fun et
Sep 17, 2022
2,843
v sry hpe pece no pain no sffr, v sry lif pain sffr
 
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monetpompo

monetpompo

don't tell me to dm you! (> <)
Apr 21, 2025
800
i hope you find peace sahar
 
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monkeysee2

send help pls
Sep 26, 2025
95
Goodbye Sahar. I hope you find the peace you're looking for.
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,485
Dear Sahar, I really wish things could've been different for you. It's so sad that you feel this way so young. I wish that life was kinder to you. I wish that life could still be kinder to you. I'm sorry that we're losing you so soon, but I wish you only the best, whichever way you decide. I wish you peace and love, whatever may happen. Thanks for sharing a bit of your journey with us, and please know that you are not alone :heart:
 
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$yck

$yck

swaggot
Oct 23, 2025
78
Goodbye Sahar. I never spoke to you personally but I always saw you in comment sections and you seem great. I'm sorry that life has been so unkind to you and I hope you find the peace you're looking for. Safe travels.
 
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kazatte

kazatte

someday, surely, this pain will disappear
Sep 1, 2025
129
sahar, you will be very, very missed. i know we've never talked but i've seen you in comment sections and i can definitely tell that you're a very lovely person. i'm sending you so so so much love and peace today <3
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
1,771
I wish you the best, Sahar~ :) See ya, and I'll pray for you~ :)
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Visionary
May 10, 2025
2,203
good luck Sahar
I hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you desire 🫂:heart:
 
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Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
525
Even though we didn't know each other, I've always valued your posts here. I'm wishing you a gentle transition and eternal peace—may you finally be free from all torment. You'll be missed 💔
 
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Alcoholic Teletubby

Alcoholic Teletubby

Rip in piss
Jan 10, 2022
482
Found your method post just before today. I hope you might reach peace at last. <3
 
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TheCallOfTheStars

TheCallOfTheStars

Member
Oct 29, 2025
51
Wishing you the best of luck and hoping you find the peace you're looking for :heart:
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,191
I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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Greasyhair

Greasyhair

Member
Oct 18, 2025
74
Where ever you are now I wish you are relieved of all your pain.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
757
Farewell, may your dream come true
GIF с Большим Сердцем От Любви
 
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3FailedAttemptss

3FailedAttemptss

trans girl (`・ω・´)
Jan 22, 2025
195
wishing you peace
 
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Hehe_ducks

New Member
Jul 18, 2023
4
Hey, I know you might not see this but I think you should give life another chance, I was heavily suicidal from the age of 8 until I was around 19, when I was 18 I started talking anti depressints and now I'm so much better, not completely fine but better, it took me years but life gets better and it's worth it, you're young and you've got plenty to look forward to, you've only got one chance in life so don't snuff it out so early
 
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