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Jason0941

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May 24, 2025
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Posting this is probably going to be the last thing I do on this forum. I plan to end my life tomorrow. My hotel reservation is booked for tomorrow, at which point I'll go to my nitrogen supplier to pick up my gas, then go to my reserved room to end my life. I would like to thank all of you for the assistance & advice that you have provided. I would also like to wish that those of you who are planning to end your lives would have the most peaceful, painless exit imaginable.

Farwell & best regards to all of you,
- Jason
 
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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
158
Godspeed
 
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33K1LLM3

33K1LLM3

Pretty Girl, Sickness killed her…
Jun 28, 2025
143
I really hope it goes well for you, may you have a very peaceful ctb and a painless end of life <3
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
Posting this is probably going to be the last thing I do on this forum. I plan to end my life tomorrow. My hotel reservation is booked for tomorrow, at which point I'll go to my nitrogen supplier to pick up my gas, then go to my reserved room to end my life. I would like to thank all of you for the assistance & advice that you have provided. I would also like to wish that those of you who are planning to end your lives would have the most peaceful, painless exit imaginable.

Farwell & best regards to all of you,
- Jason
I wish you a peaceful end. I don't know you but I'm sure you had your reasons. You're very brave by ending it! You'll leave this terrible and disgusting world and all the problems will be gone as well.
 
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FishRain3469

FishRain3469

Specialist
Mar 12, 2025
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Thoughts and Prayers Always, Godspeed. 🙏 ♥
 
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alwaysalone

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May 14, 2025
331
Good luck I hope all goes well if that's your desire.
 
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TheEmptyVoid

TheEmptyVoid

Specialist
Jun 18, 2025
352
Posting this is probably going to be the last thing I do on this forum. I plan to end my life tomorrow. My hotel reservation is booked for tomorrow, at which point I'll go to my nitrogen supplier to pick up my gas, then go to my reserved room to end my life. I would like to thank all of you for the assistance & advice that you have provided. I would also like to wish that those of you who are planning to end your lives would have the most peaceful, painless exit imaginable.

Farwell & best regards to all of you,
- Jason
I have my pure N2 type nitrogen tank which is 400 cubic feet of compressed gas (though I bought a little bit too much pure nitrogen gas because I have OCD) and I have it ready to kill myself with at anytime with of course a hose and a EEBD hood, though I need to wait for the perfect time because I DON'T LIVE ALONE. Wish you the best I hope you have peace forever.
 
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Jason0941

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May 24, 2025
95
I have my pure N2 type nitrogen tank which is 400 cubic feet of compressed gas (though I bought a little bit too much pure nitrogen gas because I have OCD) and I have it ready to kill myself with at anytime with of course a hose and a EEBD hood, though I need to wait for the perfect time because I DON'T LIVE ALONE. Wish you the best I hope you have peace forever.
You should consider booking a hotel room. I also live with someone. My solution regarding the way in which cohabitation impacted my suicide plan, was to book a room and do it there.
 
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TheEmptyVoid

Specialist
Jun 18, 2025
352
You should consider booking a hotel room. I also live with someone. My solution regarding the way in which cohabitation impacted my suicide plan, was to book a room and do it there.
Sounds like a better idea, thank you man.
Sounds like a better idea, thank you man.
I'm killing myself in the way "Vizzy" did it
 
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Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
809
Farewell! You are a very brave man. Thank you for your wishes. And all the best to you. Have a safe journey🥀
 
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kurgan

Wanderer
Jun 6, 2025
338
Posting this is probably going to be the last thing I do on this forum. I plan to end my life tomorrow. My hotel reservation is booked for tomorrow, at which point I'll go to my nitrogen supplier to pick up my gas, then go to my reserved room to end my life. I would like to thank all of you for the assistance & advice that you have provided. I would also like to wish that those of you who are planning to end your lives would have the most peaceful, painless exit imaginable.

Farwell & best regards to all of you,
- Jason
Can I ask will you be using an exit bag?
 
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lil dwayne

lil dwayne

Member
Jul 20, 2025
39
Maybe do a quick nitrogen test before hand, but wish you luck.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,496
I hope you find peace, I wish you the best.
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
2,195
nothing but love ❤️
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
1,397
Wow man,, this sounds like a decent way, but just hope It is what you want and need for yourself, It's strangely comforting knowing there's a bit of grace in this chaos.. if you at some point want any company,, even just some goofy texts in an attempt to have one last laugh just let me know! I'm your gal alright!, and even if not I hope it just goes easy,, goes as planned, I'm really Wishing you the best, in whatever you do,, thank you for being part of the this community,, you really do matter doesn't matter if the world doesn't matter,,you don't need to live to matter and you don't need to die,, idk I just want you to know,, you matter,, and I only wish you the best..
I'm sorry I didn't take the chance to know you a little,, even if this was always the plan,, knowing your in pain is enough to know I know I care.
 
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KimDokja

Demon King of Salvation
Apr 19, 2025
32
I hope you find peace and that everything goes smoothly. Wish you the best, my friend. :heart:
 
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elaineparks

Member
Jul 13, 2025
18
I wish you a good journey and peace ❤️
 
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TheEmptyVoid

Specialist
Jun 18, 2025
352
Can I ask will you be using an exit bag?
Yeah completely airtight masks are a bit better because it will constantly renew the pure nitrogen in the mask around your nose and mouth and you can efficiently exhale co2, and you can also hyperventilate to make your self pass out even faster, exit bags take a bit longer to add new gas (I'm not saying it won't work but it's best to use a completely airtight mask on your face.)
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
1,837
See ya~ I wish you the best and will pray for you~ :)
 
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NegevChina

NegevChina

I've done the best I could
Sep 5, 2024
625
Posting this is probably going to be the last thing I do on this forum. I plan to end my life tomorrow. My hotel reservation is booked for tomorrow, at which point I'll go to my nitrogen supplier to pick up my gas, then go to my reserved room to end my life. I would like to thank all of you for the assistance & advice that you have provided. I would also like to wish that those of you who are planning to end your lives would have the most peaceful, painless exit imaginable.

Farwell & best regards to all of you,
- Jason
I wish you the best possible and peaceful journey. Sorry for what brought you to this point.
My method is N2 + EB, I'll be soon on my own journey.
 
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Obliviate

Obliviate

Abandon All Hope
Aug 13, 2022
1,011
I'm so sorry this has been the final outcome. We will all follow you. This may seem incredibly insensitive but are you willing to share what mask you are using? You don't have to considering it's your last day.
 
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Jason0941

Member
May 24, 2025
95
Wow man,, this sounds like a decent way, but just hope It is what you want and need for yourself, It's strangely comforting knowing there's a bit of grace in this chaos.. if you at some point want any company,, even just some goofy texts in an attempt to have one last laugh just let me know! I'm your gal alright!, and even if not I hope it just goes easy,, goes as planned, I'm really Wishing you the best, in whatever you do,, thank you for being part of the this community,, you really do matter doesn't matter if the world doesn't matter,,you don't need to live to matter and you don't need to die,, idk I just want you to know,, you matter,, and I only wish you the best..
I'm sorry I didn't take the chance to know you a little,, even if this was always the plan,, knowing your in pain is enough to know I know I care.
Thank you for your kind words, farewell.
I'm so sorry this has been the final outcome. We will all follow you. This may seem incredibly insensitive but are you willing to share what mask you are using? You don't have to considering it's your last day.
Your request isn't insensitive at all. If I were still in the phase of planning my exit: I would also want someone to give me advice.
This is is the mask that I'm using https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0F22FFZBM?ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_fed_asin_title
Here is the regulator that I'll be using https://www.amazon.com/dp/B089PTVLL8?ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_fed_asin_title&th=1

The regulator comes with a detachment upon which you would slide the mask hose. It also comes with a hose clamp, which you should use, in order to make sure that the tubing is secure.
 
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Jason0941

Member
May 24, 2025
95
I wish you a peaceful end. I don't know you but I'm sure you had your reasons. You're very brave by ending it! You'll leave this terrible and disgusting world and all the problems will be gone as well.
Speaking of this terrible & disgusting world: one of the things that I find particularly disgusting is how society thinks it's okay to euthanize pets, yet it still frowns on the right to die. Society euthanizes pets who cannot consent. Yet for people like you & me who can consent: society does not recognize the right to die.
 
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Eriktf

Elementalist
Jun 1, 2023
835
wish you peace and hoping your last moment gonna be peaceful
 
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Danny Phantom

Mad About The World
Jul 22, 2025
7
Posting this is probably going to be the last thing I do on this forum. I plan to end my life tomorrow. My hotel reservation is booked for tomorrow, at which point I'll go to my nitrogen supplier to pick up my gas, then go to my reserved room to end my life. I would like to thank all of you for the assistance & advice that you have provided. I would also like to wish that those of you who are planning to end your lives would have the most peaceful, painless exit imaginable.

Farwell & best regards to all of you,
- Jason
I hope it will be a quick and painless one Jason. We all have shit in our lives and can't get out of it.

Godspeed.
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
Speaking of this terrible & disgusting world: one of the things that I find particularly disgusting is how society thinks it's okay to euthanize pets, yet it still frowns on the right to die. Society euthanizes pets who cannot consent. Yet for people like you & me who can consent: society does not recognize the right to die.
Can I ask you a question? How did you manage to overcome your survival instinct? I mean, when you decided to go on that day, was there a trigger factor beforehand, like an argument, or had you planned everything a long time ago and now the day has arrived? I'm asking because I've already planned everything and want to hang myself. Unfortunately, I'm very afraid of it, even though it's my only chance to end this suffering.
 
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troubledM

Member
Jun 13, 2025
21
i wish you the best and peace above all else <3
 
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jazzcat621

jazzcat621

Trial mod | My heart for the whole world
Jun 30, 2025
114
I hope you find the peace and relief you seek. My heart goes out to you <3
 
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