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vinicuit

vinicuit

vini
Mar 1, 2026
23
do you guys ever thought about it?
i do it all the time, i start imagining how it would be like depending of the method and place, if it's going to be a friend or a stranger...

my favourite scenario, it's me in a hanged in a hotel room, a employee finds my body and my friends don't have to see the scene, they'll probably see me when i'm in a morgue already
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,830
Yeah. Sadly with my current plan I would leave my body for the person I love most. Callous. I suppose I could leave a sign on the door. But I'm not that decisive and my method (partial hanging) sucks.
 
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ChiariBear

Member
Apr 1, 2026
12
I've been considering CTB at a hotel in a city about 2 hours away by train. I've been picturing the staff/police finding my body laying in bed peacefullyish after a combination of pills, alcohol and suffocation.
 
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Harrier

Student
Mar 31, 2026
177
Part of why I haven't jumped during the last two weeks is specific people finding my body.

Maybe I just have to completely withdraw, and then jump.
 
XxEstenxX

XxEstenxX

A Borderline is speaking. Listen and Learn.
Feb 10, 2026
67
do you guys ever thought about it?
i do it all the time, i start imagining how it would be like depending of the method and place, if it's going to be a friend or a stranger...

my favourite scenario, it's me in a hanged in a hotel room, a employee finds my body and my friends don't have to see the scene, they'll probably see me when i'm in a morgue already
For me, I usually think about that whenever I start feeling guilty about planning....but also its lowkey attention seeking behavior, too. The thought of my parents or my family finally seeing me dead and realizing that I was genuinely suffering and that I wasn't just a lazy, socially awkward ""daughter"" this whole time is almost satisfying...
 
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SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
219
It makes me queasy. I'd look like a smurf. It doesn't matter who the fuck ever found me, I would be unsightly and that shit sucks since I spend my entire life feeling hella chopped and constantly trying to look presentable.

Now I'm just chopped. To the end.
 
eros

eros

Member
Mar 24, 2026
5
do you guys ever thought about it?
i do it all the time, i start imagining how it would be like depending of the method and place, if it's going to be a friend or a stranger...

my favourite scenario, it's me in a hanged in a hotel room, a employee finds my body and my friends don't have to see the scene, they'll probably see me when i'm in a morgue already
I always think about the broad implications of my death. I want to know how people I know, or even strangers, would react and I try and formulate what they'd say or do or how long it would take….
 

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