Btw. do you feel ashamed when just talking with your closest relatives about your thoughts? It is a taboo, that's for sure. I just don't want to burden my family with my shitty thoughts even if it's just talking in the moment. I mean what should they even do?
No I didn't feel ashamed my brother invaded my privacy and looked at my screen when we were on a stella session and I was having a laugh with someone and he asked why I was on here and I told him and he told my mum and family, I have said it a few times I was very outgoing I worked hard in blue chip companies and run marathons for charity and raised a lot of money, travelled 2 or 3 times a year treated my mum A/I and expensive paid. Just 6 months on risperidone, destroyed my life I still can't sleep and didn't want to wash or be in the same room with people, when the subject comes up I say what do you think I am living like this. I do watch a lot of rebirth afterlife programs when my mums sitting with me and get her on the subject of death and the after life and ghost stories, lol it does help because she saw her dead sister about 30 years ago and rushed over to the church to have a prayer said for her, I saw something when I was young it could have been a dream but I have never experenced anything like it since and I remind everyone we will all die sooner or later, thats the experience I have got out of this I never thought about death unless someone was old and really ill or I was at a funeral but now I think about it daily, may have something to do witth being on SS, lol. but at the end of the day you realise no matter how your life has been, friends, family, eneny's, we all die.
Cheers
Geo