Fake Personalities

[15dec]

Yes, and I actually experience mini bouts of mania like Johnny was saying. Basically when I feel like I have to be outgoing, it's as if something inside me kind of switches over (from blah to hyper) but it goes too far at times and I can seem really goofy and over the top. I have been known to say really awkward things, or try too hard, or say something inappropriate because I feel pressured to seem charismatic and likable. It's completely self-imposed and seems to happen automatically, although being aware of it has helped me temper it more successfully as of late.

Wow, that sounds eerily similar to me. I'm glad you're getting more used to it

 

[Johnnythefox]

I can never fake how I'm feeling, I wish I could wear a mask. When I think of times that I felt "uh normal" and enjoyed things, I can't believe it was me. I can't relate to that person, it seems like a different person entirely.