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Most of us on here want to CTB. We say that we are exhausted by trying to fake that we are OK. I stopped faking and the good feeling I had by doing so faded pretty quick. I am just as exhausted now being "my true self" as when I was faking. The difference is now that I don't fake being OK my life has gotten exponentially worse. So I think I am going to go back to faking. I mean over the top (fake) positivity. Still planning and wanting to CTB. What's the worse that can happen. Either something good clicks in my brain or I still CTB. Not faking is just as tiring as faking.
 
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