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tieiwi

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Dec 11, 2021
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out of impulse I mixed up some sn in water and drank it last night, it wasn't much maybe 1/3 of a cup, I started to feel sleepy and my hands, feet, and lips started to turn blue, at first I thought "wow if things continue like this then sn really is a peaceful way out". That's until I started vomiting. It felt terrible. I had nothing in my stomach in the first place so I was basically choking on air. I always read that even the tiniest amount of sn could kill you so I thought it would work. After vomiting about 5 or 6 times I fell asleep. I thought "this is it" but I woke up today. My hands, feet, and lips aren't blue anymore and I feel fine. I guess I must've threw up all the sn I drank. I think even if I drank a second cup I'd just throw that up too. I'm not good at keeping vomit down. I am considering trying again with a larger amount of sn and maybe drinking a second cup after I vomit. I just hate the taste of it that even just the smell makes me nauseous. I am not the type of person who's able to just push through those things, I'm sensitive. I really thought this would work and the feeling of waking up after all of that sucks but then again I took a small amount and didn't prepare at all.
 
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castler

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As others will mention, sn isn't meant for microdosage which I would assume 1/3c would be. You'd probably need alot more - idk say half litre? Ur body would probably shut down faster than just tossing it back up.
 
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ihatethecia

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What kind was it ? From IC or DD? How many grams was in the water
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,269
I think the title is a bit misleading. SN is not a risky method as many people have died from it and it does actually work. I'm sorry that you had this experience though, it must have been so awful. I understand why you would have been frustrated and upset when you woke up. Best wishes, I hope you find relief from suffering.
 
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tieiwi

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howmuch pain you feel
no pain, only "pain" was when I was vomiting and if I'm being honest that wasn't even that bad I'm just really sensitive
 
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madebrief

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No preparation means much more likely to fail. You can't just do it out of impulse and expect to succeed with no AE and drinking only 1/3.
 
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tieiwi

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Dec 11, 2021
240
As others will mention, sn isn't meant for microdosage which I would assume 1/3c would be. You'd probably need alot more - idk say half litre? Ur body would probably shut down faster than just tossing it back up.
yea I probably took a little amount, the problem is the taste bothered me so much I don't think I'd be able to do this again, if you're considering sn then I suggest doing it right from the first time, now even just the smell of it triggers nausea
I think the title is a bit misleading. SN is not a risky method as many people have died from it and it does actually work. I'm sorry that you had this experience though, it must have been so awful. I understand why you would have been frustrated and upset when you woke up. Best wishes, I hope you find relief from suffering.
yea I changed it, I'm just frustrated it didn't work but then again I didn't do any preparation, thank you
No preparation means much more likely to fail. You can't just do it out of impulse and expect to succeed with no AE and drinking only 1/3.
yea I just assumed there was a chance it would work since I saw posts where people passed just by consuming 2grams
 
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Zerengin96

Student
Jun 14, 2022
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You need to use at least 25 g of SN. Dont half ass this shit
 
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Someone123

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Oct 19, 2021
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You had about three times the recommended dose, depending on your weight- maybe four times if you are light. When you go so much over the recommended dose there is much more chance of vomiting and the ctb attempt failing. Plus not using an antiemitic increases the chances of this happening. The closer you follow Stan's Guide the better the chance of it working.
 
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london3

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May 5, 2022
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out of impulse I mixed up some sn in water and drank it last night, it wasn't much maybe 1/3 of a cup, I started to feel sleepy and my hands, feet, and lips started to turn blue, at first I thought "wow if things continue like this then sn really is a peaceful way out". That's until I started vomiting. It felt terrible. I had nothing in my stomach in the first place so I was basically choking on air. I always read that even the tiniest amount of sn could kill you so I thought it would work. After vomiting about 5 or 6 times I fell asleep. I thought "this is it" but I woke up today. My hands, feet, and lips aren't blue anymore and I feel fine. I guess I must've threw up all the sn I drank. I think even if I drank a second cup I'd just throw that up too. I'm not good at keeping vomit down. I am considering trying again with a larger amount of sn and maybe drinking a second cup after I vomit. I just hate the taste of it that even just the smell makes me nauseous. I am not the type of person who's able to just push through those things, I'm sensitive. I really thought this would work and the feeling of waking up after all of that sucks.

Hi

I am really sorry about your bad experience with experimenting with SN. Doing things on impulse is not a good idea.

Tasting SN is not recommended at all, even tasting 1 gram is dangerous and you could end up with symptoms. SN is not a good option as a cry for help like cutting or paracetamol overdose etc.

So with your experiment it did have the effect of turning lips blue etc, so it was working at 1g, 25g will likely kill you if you followed the correct plan.

It is wrong information that the tiniest amount of sn will kill you, what you read is not true. You also vomited what you swallowed so i assume you did not follow stans guide in terms of fasting and using an anti emetic? You say you are sensitive so please follow stans guide?

I hope you understand that sn is not a joke and you must do proper planning for it to work.
 
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tieiwi

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Dec 11, 2021
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You had about three times the recommended dose, depending on your weight- maybe four times if you are ligfht. When you go so much over the recommended dose there is much more chance of vomiting and the ctb attempt failing.
really? I am light. What is the recommended dose? I am on the smaller side..
 
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KiraLittleOwl

Lost in transition
Jan 25, 2019
1,083
I am sorry you had to go through this.
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london3

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May 5, 2022
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yea I probably took a little amount, the problem is the taste bothered me so much I don't think I'd be able to do this again, if you're considering sn then I suggest doing it right from the first time, now even just the smell of it triggers nausea

yea I changed it, I'm just frustrated it didn't work but then again I didn't do any preparation, thank you

yea I just assumed there was a chance it would work since I saw posts where people passed just by consuming 2grams
If the taste bothers you you can use a numbing mouthwash or gel like Difflam or Orajel that contains benzocaine/lidocaine or another numbing ingredient., you can also swirl your mouth with chocolate immediately after to mask the taste.

It did not work because you did not follow stans guide.

The information about 2-3 grams refers to how much sn the body has to absorb to be fatal not the amount you swallow. You should be swallowing 25-50g of sn in multiple glasses, from this 50g only 3-5 grams have to be absorbed to be successful. Even if you vomit 95% of the 50g of sn you swallow, that 5g that is in your intestine will definitely work.

Please be careful next time and do not experiment.
really? I am light. What is the recommended dose? I am on the smaller side..
25g in 50ml is the recommendation. Have 2 glasses ready before you start. Swallow both if needed. Being light should not matter follow the recommended dose. Please follow the plan in all aspects.
 
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Euthanza

Self Righteous Suicide
Jun 9, 2022
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To make your tongue numb, try orajel or mouth wash for few minutes. I think a lick of honey or oil gargle may help cover tongue (don't swallow it). Hold breath while ingesting.
 
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tieiwi

Experienced
Dec 11, 2021
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Hi

PLEASE DO NOT EXPIREMENT WITH SN! Impulsive decisions to use deadly methods like sn are dangerous and will likely end in failure. You must follow the proven plan or do not try at all.

Tasting SN is not recommended at all, even testing 1 gram is dangerous and you could end up with symptoms. SN is not a good option as a cry for help like cutting or paracetamol overdose etc.

So with your experiment it did have the effect of turning lips blue etc, so it was working at 1g, 25g will likely kill you if you bothered to follow the correct plan.

It is wrong that even the tiniest amount of sn will kill you, what you read is not true. You also vomited the 1g you swallowed so i assume you did not bother to follow stans guide in terms of fasting and using an anti emetic? You say you are sensitive so why not follow the proven plan?

I hope you have learned your lesson that sn is not a joke and you must do proper planning for it to work.
Hey I understand you're just trying to help but the way you worded this doesn't sound so nice. I already mentioned how I didn't prepare and did it on impulse which is why I failed. All I'm doing is sharing my failed attempt and letting people know the symptoms I felt. So they don't make the same mistake as me. I didn't take sn "as a joke" or as a cry for help. I don't understand why people are getting upset at me about my OWN attempt. Nor did I take it as a way to "experiment". You are correct that if I followed the guide I'd probably succeed. What I read about even the tiniest amount of sn could kill was actually on this site. Thank you for your input.
I am sorry you had to go through this.
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Thank you for being so kind I feel like people are getting upset at me for failing this so I really needed your kind comment
 
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london3

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May 5, 2022
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Please follow stans guide below

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

You can also search successfull goodbye threads of people who used sn to get an idea of correct planning.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/goodbye-thread-ctb-tonight-in-the-next-5-6-hours.92404/

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-ctb-tomorrow.94155/#post-1654421

Here is also the chart to use for SN dosage.

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tieiwi

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To make your tongue numb, try orajel or mouth wash for few minutes. I think a lick of honey or oil gargle may help cover tongue (don't swallow it). Hold breath while ingesting.
Thank you!
Please follow stans guide below

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/
stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

You can also search successfull goodbye threads of people who used sn to get an idea of correct planning.

Here is also the chart to use of sn dosage.
Thank you
 
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Someone123

Illuminated
Oct 19, 2021
3,875
really? I am light. What is the recommended dose? I am on the smaller side..
Following is a link to Stan's Guide, which has details about this:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/
 
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london3

Banned Scammer
May 5, 2022
584
Hey I understand you're just trying to help but the way you worded this doesn't sound so nice. I already mentioned how I didn't prepare and did it on impulse which is why I failed. All I'm doing is sharing my failed attempt and letting people know the symptoms I felt. So they don't make the same mistake as me. I didn't take sn "as a joke" or as a cry for help. I don't understand why people are getting upset at me about my OWN attempt. Nor did I take it as a way to "experiment". You are correct that if I followed the guide I'd probably succeed. What I read about even the tiniest amount of sn could kill was actually on this site. Thank you for your input.

Thank you for being so kind I feel like people are getting upset at me for failing this so I really needed your kind comment
Sorry i did not mean to come across as rude. All i will say is you should take sn in a calm and calculated way. The more you deviate from stans guide the more likely things will go wrong.

The tiny amount of sn is to do with actual absorption of sn in the gut, it does not refer to how much sn you swallow. 25-50g must be swallowed. 3-5g in the gut to be fatal.
 
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Enoughnow

Experienced
Feb 1, 2022
206
You'll get used to the meaness of this site some of the people on here are very disrespectful and rude I'm sorry things didn't work how you'd hoped I had a failed attempt on sn too but when you talk about it on here you get torn apart I'm gonna try again with it tonight I've been fasting all day and taking buccastem every couple of hours hopefully so I don't vomit it all back up like I did last time
All the best ignore the rude comments I'm sure they'll be plenty more to come just stay strong
 
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london3

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You'll get used to the meaness of this site some of the people on here are very disrespectful and rude I'm sorry things didn't work how you'd hoped I had a failed attempt on sn too but when you talk about it on here you get torn apart I'm gonna try again with it tonight I've been fasting all day and taking buccastem every couple of hours hopefully so I don't vomit it all back up like I did last time
All the best ignore the rude comments I'm sure they'll be plenty more to come just stay strong
Good luck in your sn attempt. Please follow the plan and you are more likely to succeed.
 
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juraviel

PL
Aug 11, 2021
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man.. you did everything wrong. literally. what if you woke up in a vegetative state.. i feel like people are so miserable they can't imagine feeling worse. but YES, your life CAN get EVEN worse. so for god sake's please stop doing such stupid things it only perpetuates the idea that sn isn't reliable

(you don't even know how much you took.. !)
 
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Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
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What kind was it ? From IC or DD? How many grams was in the water
Just curious. Don't you have IC and took it already?

Sorry OP. Don't do anything unless you're truly ready.
 
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Everydayismisery

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Jun 25, 2022
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man.. you did everything wrong. literally. what if you woke up in a vegetative state.. i feel like people are so miserable they can't imagine feeling worse. but YES, your life CAN get EVEN worse. so for god sake's please stop doing such stupid things it only perpetuates the idea that sn isn't reliable

(you don't even know how much you took.. !)
Yo they literally said they did it on impulse. 44% of attempts are on impulse. They're well aware of the mistake they made.
 
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Endtimes1

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Isn't SN very cancerous, even in small amounts?
 
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Everydayismisery

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Jun 25, 2022
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Just curious. Don't you have IC and took it already?

Sorry OP. Don't do anything unless you're truly ready.
I second Shu's questions. I thought you had it & took it as well
 
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Shu

As above, So Below.
Jan 21, 2022
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man.. you did everything wrong. literally. what if you woke up in a vegetative state.. i feel like people are so miserable they can't imagine feeling worse. but YES, your life CAN get EVEN worse. so for god sake's please stop doing such stupid things it only perpetuates the idea that sn isn't reliable

(you don't even know how much you took.. !)
You won't wake up in a vegetative state.
 
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tieiwi

Experienced
Dec 11, 2021
240
man.. you did everything wrong. literally. what if you woke up in a vegetative state.. i feel like people are so miserable they can't imagine feeling worse. but YES, your life CAN get EVEN worse. so for god sake's please stop doing such stupid things it only perpetuates the idea that sn isn't reliable

(you don't even know how much you took.. !)
thank you for being so kind
 
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