Nagito
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- May 25, 2022
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A lot of text but I'm hoping if someone is considering this method, this can help.
This did not go well for me at all and I wanted to let people know just how horrible it feels in case anyone is thinking of using this method. I have SN but I wanted to try this method because mostly the only way of knowing if this method was used is when someone tells the doctors. Otherwise its very rarely tested for in autopsies.
I had everything ready to go two nights ago when I was preparing my pong pong seeds and opening them up (I had about 8), all of them were completely dried up. There are usually 2 kernels per seed.
The kernels are supposed to be white when you first take them out, then they gradually turn black once exposed to air. I thought if I kept them in the seed it would be fine but almost all of them shriveled into dust.
I did have two kernels from a few months ago that weren't completely black because as soon as I saw them changing color I put them in an airtight bag. My advice is if you're very determined to try this method, take the kernels out of the seed as soon as you get them and put them in an airtight bag out of the sun. Only take them if they are white.
I had two mostly black kernels and one partially white kernel I managed to salvage and I tried anyways. I cut them into tiny slivers and swallowed them. Another thing I'd recommend against. Get them as fine as possible before taking them.
TMI warning about the effects
I took them at 7am and by 7:30 I was vomiting violently. After that it was non stop puking for nearly 15 hours. I couldn't keep anything down, couldn't drink water, couldn't lay down. Just violent vomiting every 5-10 minutes, then I could go for stretches of 20 minutes after a few hours. There was also diarrhea, but not nearly as much as the vomiting.
My plan was to go to urgent care after a few hours with the intention to get UTI medication and hope my heart rate was lowered by that time so they would get me help (not so that I could be resuscitated, but I was trying to time it based off of the length of time it took other cases of pong pong poisoning to reach death so that I would die in a hospital and not at home). My heart rate was higher than normal lmao. Apparently vomiting can be a side effect of a UTI so the doctor wrote it off as that.
I went home and by this point I felt like I was in hell. I felt so horribly nauseous, if you've ever had a horrible day long hangover picture that but even worse and more persistent. I tried sleeping it off but I had to wake up about every hour to throw up. My heart rate finally started lowering, but only to it's normal pace for me (50 bpm). I was getting palpitations and I thought maybe it was finally working. This was about 8-9 hours after ingestion.
But no, the palpitations stopped after a few hours and I was just left with the most horrible nausea I've ever experienced. It's now been a full day and I still feel very horrible and nauseous, but luckily I'm not throwing up anymore. There is bad diarrhea in its place though. I had to wake up a few times during the night just to go.
Really regretting taking the non-white kernels. I'm sure if they were fresher I wouldn't be here right now but I couldn't find any information about taking them once they've turned black so I decided to try anyways.
Even if you have the white ones, this method is more horrible than I imagined. I advise you to find something more peaceful if you are considering, even if it is more obviously a suicide.
It has been 25 hours now and I still feel horrible. Water is still a challenge to drink. I've also been planning everything in my life for over half a year with the intention to die yesterday. I have no idea what to do with myself now. I don't want to be here.
This did not go well for me at all and I wanted to let people know just how horrible it feels in case anyone is thinking of using this method. I have SN but I wanted to try this method because mostly the only way of knowing if this method was used is when someone tells the doctors. Otherwise its very rarely tested for in autopsies.
I had everything ready to go two nights ago when I was preparing my pong pong seeds and opening them up (I had about 8), all of them were completely dried up. There are usually 2 kernels per seed.
The kernels are supposed to be white when you first take them out, then they gradually turn black once exposed to air. I thought if I kept them in the seed it would be fine but almost all of them shriveled into dust.
I did have two kernels from a few months ago that weren't completely black because as soon as I saw them changing color I put them in an airtight bag. My advice is if you're very determined to try this method, take the kernels out of the seed as soon as you get them and put them in an airtight bag out of the sun. Only take them if they are white.
I had two mostly black kernels and one partially white kernel I managed to salvage and I tried anyways. I cut them into tiny slivers and swallowed them. Another thing I'd recommend against. Get them as fine as possible before taking them.
TMI warning about the effects
I took them at 7am and by 7:30 I was vomiting violently. After that it was non stop puking for nearly 15 hours. I couldn't keep anything down, couldn't drink water, couldn't lay down. Just violent vomiting every 5-10 minutes, then I could go for stretches of 20 minutes after a few hours. There was also diarrhea, but not nearly as much as the vomiting.
My plan was to go to urgent care after a few hours with the intention to get UTI medication and hope my heart rate was lowered by that time so they would get me help (not so that I could be resuscitated, but I was trying to time it based off of the length of time it took other cases of pong pong poisoning to reach death so that I would die in a hospital and not at home). My heart rate was higher than normal lmao. Apparently vomiting can be a side effect of a UTI so the doctor wrote it off as that.
I went home and by this point I felt like I was in hell. I felt so horribly nauseous, if you've ever had a horrible day long hangover picture that but even worse and more persistent. I tried sleeping it off but I had to wake up about every hour to throw up. My heart rate finally started lowering, but only to it's normal pace for me (50 bpm). I was getting palpitations and I thought maybe it was finally working. This was about 8-9 hours after ingestion.
But no, the palpitations stopped after a few hours and I was just left with the most horrible nausea I've ever experienced. It's now been a full day and I still feel very horrible and nauseous, but luckily I'm not throwing up anymore. There is bad diarrhea in its place though. I had to wake up a few times during the night just to go.
Really regretting taking the non-white kernels. I'm sure if they were fresher I wouldn't be here right now but I couldn't find any information about taking them once they've turned black so I decided to try anyways.
Even if you have the white ones, this method is more horrible than I imagined. I advise you to find something more peaceful if you are considering, even if it is more obviously a suicide.
It has been 25 hours now and I still feel horrible. Water is still a challenge to drink. I've also been planning everything in my life for over half a year with the intention to die yesterday. I have no idea what to do with myself now. I don't want to be here.
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