failed attempt #2

[SuicidalUTFan]

I just tried to hang myself but the bar on my door couldn't hold my weight and fell off, so now all I have is wasted time that I could've spent sleeping (my sleep schedule is COOKED), and a sore neck. Everything just keeps fucking going wrong. I hate life and myself, why can't it just WORK.

 

[ChainedCrow]

Im sorry it didnt work out. I hope u get good sleep even with your bad sleep schedule.
Much love

 

[Life_is_an_STD]

I just had a failed attempt too but the anchor point wasn't the issue. I used one of those steel over the door hook racks and did partial. My issue was that I didn't get the perfect position on the neck and restricted my breathing and started wheezing. I also guess I wasn't entirely ready cause I backed out. I feel like it has to be a spontaneous thing where you don't think about it too much and just do it.

 

[User111885]

Are you in Utah? A lot of Utah is so religious, I hope you just aren't ending things because of low self-esteem being a gay person when you're in Utah and surrounded by many homophobic people.

I think you said elsewhere you are 19. You seem really young to do this. Have you looked at other options? You have very few posts, this seems sudden, I hope you aren't doing this impulsively.
you don't have to stay in Utah if you were there, there's lots of places with more accepting people

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it's just so dreadful to me how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to more suffering, I also hate existing and I always suffer from how there isn't the option to just peacefully cease existing that is guaranteed, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[SuicidalUTFan]

Are you in Utah? A lot of Utah is so religious, I hope you just aren't ending things because of low self-esteem being a gay person when you're in Utah and surrounded by many homophobic people.

I think you said elsewhere you are 19. You seem really young to do this. Have you looked at other options? You have very few posts, this seems sudden, I hope you aren't doing this impulsively.
you don't have to stay in Utah if you were there, there's lots of places with more accepting people

I don't live in Utah, but people in my state are mostly conservatives who aren't accepting at all. And I'm broke as hell so I can't really move away even if I wanted to.