Extreme mood swings

[playalistic]

I always have spurts of extreme motivation/euphoria/happiness for ~3 days at a time, followed by ~3 days of extreme depressive suicidal ideation that feel like me ruining all the progress I built up the days prior

It sounds/feels like syptoms of a mood disorder or potentially something bipolar but im not diagnosed w anything

Does anyone else deal with this

 

[getoutgirl]

Hi.
I deal with pretty much exactly that. 3-4 days each. Okay/Good-ish to Depressive/Suicidal. Some streaks have lasted for longer, if a period of time was specially bad, or hopeful, but there's always been these waves.

I have no idea if it's a mood disorder, I am not diagnosed myself either. At a time I just thought it was me failing recovery over and over, being too week or lazy to keep up with habits. A basal state of sadness and meager attempts to climb out, but too weak to do so. But then after years I started to see the pattern, and it got a bit easier in that way. I can at least know the next wave is coming, prepare, and ride them as best I can. But it makes it sooo hard to keep up with anything, you are right, it's a cycle and a flow of stagnation.

I'm sorry you deal with that too. I'm not doing too good at the moment so I can't offer much advice about this, hope others do. I guess talk to a professional yeah. But I feel you, it sucks. Try to enjoy the good days whenever they show up, don't question them just take them in, they can get sparse. That's the one advice I'd give. Big hugs <3

 

[tooBadTooLate]

Sometimes, yeah, although they've been much more subdued these days due to the antipsychotics I've been taking. I'm not diagnosed with a mood disorder, either, but I think it's got something to do with my autism. Maybe being around people who I struggle to get along with tends to make that worse.

followed by ~3 days of extreme depressive suicidal ideation that feel like me ruining all the progress I built up the days prior

I feel you too. It ended up being a cycle for me for a while and it sucked.