Experimented today

[MiMif]

I have a date for my ctb attempt and hopefully my last one. It's February seventh like 5 days from now.

As an experiment and to scope out the area im jumping at. I went to multiple parking garages that I can actually get to highest one was around 7 stories. Though I tested this out on the 4 story one.

Basically I just climbed on the edge i didnt jump I just wanted to see if I would get freaked out. There weren't many people there but there was still some so I didn't stand I just was like on my knees on the ledge looking down. I was okay...my heart wasn't beating really fast or anything I felt at peace. Before doing this I dropped a necklace and a bottle of juice I was drinking down to see the impact. The jewelry expectedly shattered into a million pieces and the bottle which was plastic did as well. The fall took no more then a second.

I did this while in a severe state of derealization however so I'm not sure about when the actual day comes if I'll be able to do the same. Me and my friends were hanging out at the mall and I honestly had fun with them despite how they made me feel miserable before. However I got separated from them and couldn't find them so I just ended up going to the parking garage and experimenting. I was also in a derealization state when I was hanging out with them that's actually when it started and lasted until I got back home.
Turned out my friends actually just left lol. They told me they thought I left too and said sorry. I don't really blame them for that though I'm actually thankful. They kept talking about hanging out later and I didn't lie. They asked me what I was doing for Valentine's Day and I said I was going to be chilling. Which isn't a lie I'll be chilling in my grave .

I'ma try getting alcohol before I go and I hope I enter another period of derealization

 

[YEAR2050]

sounds like an eventful day. you could perhaps along with alcohol try to stay awake the entire night, since lack of sleep helps with depersonalization

 

[MiMif]

sounds like an eventful day. you could perhaps along with alcohol try to stay awake the entire night, since lack of sleep helps with depersonalization

I'm not of the age where I live to get alcohol ..but I'll still try

I'm not of the age where I live to get alcohol ..but I'll still try

I feel like I worded this weird...

It's not legal for me to get alcohol cause I'm not 21

 

[Slark]

I have a date for my ctb attempt and hopefully my last one. It's February seventh like 5 days from now.

As an experiment and to scope out the area im jumping at. I went to multiple parking garages that I can actually get to highest one was around 7 stories. Though I tested this out on the 4 story one.

Basically I just climbed on the edge i didnt jump I just wanted to see if I would get freaked out. There weren't many people there but there was still some so I didn't stand I just was like on my knees on the ledge looking down. I was okay...my heart wasn't beating really fast or anything I felt at peace. Before doing this I dropped a necklace and a bottle of juice I was drinking down to see the impact. The jewelry expectedly shattered into a million pieces and the bottle which was plastic did as well. The fall took no more then a second.

I did this while in a severe state of derealization however so I'm not sure about when the actual day comes if I'll be able to do the same. Me and my friends were hanging out at the mall and I honestly had fun with them despite how they made me feel miserable before. However I got separated from them and couldn't find them so I just ended up going to the parking garage and experimenting. I was also in a derealization state when I was hanging out with them that's actually when it started and lasted until I got back home.
Turned out my friends actually just left lol. They told me they thought I left too and said sorry. I don't really blame them for that though I'm actually thankful. They kept talking about hanging out later and I didn't lie. They asked me what I was doing for Valentine's Day and I said I was going to be chilling. Which isn't a lie I'll be chilling in my grave .

I'ma try getting alcohol before I go and I hope I enter another period of derealization

I went through this with derealization too, when I started taking antidepressants. Do you think 7 floors are enough? I think a low height to be sure of the result

 

[MiMif]

I went through this with derealization too, when I started taking antidepressants. Do you think 7 floors are enough? I think a low height to be sure of the result

Thats the highest accessible place around me. Also I don't want to mess up my face too bad when I die. It might sound stupid but I'm gonna be dressed all pretty when I do it and I wanna be as such when I go splat....as much as possible at least so Im not even sure I want to go that high.

 

[Slark]

Thats the highest accessible place around me. Also I don't want to mess up my face too bad when I die. It might sound stupid but I'm gonna be dressed all pretty when I do it and I wanna be as such when I go splat....as much as possible at least so Im not even sure I want to go that high.

I understand the feeling of not wanting to ruin your face too much and being well dressed, but I think jumping is a method that imposes many consequences in case of failure. Maybe you'd better think about this carefully.

 

[casual_existence]

If you can do any other method then you will have better chances of not ruining yourself.

 

[MiMif]

I understand the feeling of not wanting to ruin your face too much and being well dressed, but I think jumping is a method that imposes many consequences in case of failure. Maybe you'd better think about this carefully.

Yeah however I've been watching gore jumping videos and even at four stories they die and. their face isn't ruined too bad. Also seven is the highest place I can get that's around me. I've thought it out already

If you can do any other method then you will have better chances of not ruining yourself.

Yeah but jumping is what I want to do...I can't explain it but it's the method I wanna go out with. I only live once and can only do this once so yeah.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck in your plans, I see those who choose this method as being couragous, I admire them.

 

[Linda]

7 storeys might not be enough. A good rule of thumb is that you need 100 feet or more, with a landing on a hard surface (such as concrete) if you want to be almost certain of succeeding. 7 storeys might be only 60 or 70 feet, depending on how high each storey is. This is one method that you really don't want to mess up, because you could finish up very badly injured if you do. It might be worth waiting until you can find somewhere higher. Another point: before you jump make sure there is nobody below you. Landing on top of someone would be bad for them (it could injure them seriously or even kill them) and bad for you (they could break your fall.) Also, make sure you don't land on a car, as that could break your fall too.

 

[MiMif]

7 storeys might not be enough. A good rule of thumb is that you need 100 feet or more, with a landing on a hard surface (such as concrete) if you want to be almost certain of succeeding. 7 storeys might be only 60 or 70 feet, depending on how high each storey is. This is one method that you really don't want to mess up, because you could finish up very badly injured if you do. It might be worth waiting until you can find somewhere higher. Another point: before you jump make sure there is nobody below you. Landing on top of someone would be bad for them (it could injure them seriously or even kill them) and bad for you (they could break your fall.) Also, make sure you don't land on a car, as that could break your fall too.

Thanks also love your pfp.

However I feel if I don't do it now I will definitely back out and stay here suffering as I am a coward. People have died with less then seven stories so I'ma take my chances I'm also gonna attempt to do a perfect jumping angle

 

[Linda]

Thanks also love your pfp.

However I feel if I don't do it now I will definitely back out and stay here suffering as I am a coward. People have died with less then seven stories so I'ma take my chances I'm also gonna attempt to do a perfect jumping angle

Good luck then. Hope it goes well for you.