Having friends is bittersweet

[burninghill]

I just went out, it's the night before my birthday.

I really love my friends, I've worked hard to find friends who actually appreciate me and treat me with respect, it just always feel so bittersweet. I've had a good night, a great night even, but I'm still the same hopeless person. Sometimes I wish that they could save me. I think that I like somebody in my friend group but it doesn't even feel realistic to pursue it.

It makes me sad because I want to keep enjoying my time with them, but it feels like trying to watch a YouTube video while your house is burning down. Trying to focus on enjoying it while everything around you is falling apart.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

this is very much how how i feel as well. it makes it very hard to know how to feel and what to do

 

[lateblossom99]

the night after a great day is always so awful

 

[NPCaesar]

Hey, I obviously dont know you and the situation youre in. But from how it sounds, I'd talk to them about the was you feel. This isnt meant to be some pro lifer bullshit, but hearing and having a different pov is always very valuable. Having such good friends is very valuable, dont throw that away just yet.