
SpottedPanda
I'm all about coffee and cigarettes
- Jul 24, 2019
- 612
I'm not sure how helpful it'll be, but I can tell you about my utterly abysmal failure with this method.
Before I found this forum, and just going on what I'd read in the PPH, and other probably not so thorough internet resources, I bought party helium, bought the only piping I could find from Amazon, a somewhat rigid piping that meant I had to have the gas at an exact angle from my head whilst laying down for it to stay put, with sticky tack under the canister to keep it from spinning.
I got drunk, and what surprised me is that when I turned the gas on (no regulator), the gas made such a violent hissing sound that it would have been apparent two rooms off in the otherwise silent house. This was a massive red flag for me.
I'd got a Sainsbury's shopping back without holes, used black tape to fit the tubing to the bag through a hole I'd punctured through it with a pen. The tubing was taped to the gas canister rubber nozzle haphazardly.
I sat there, listening to my 'Hits of '99' mix, listening to this God awful loud hissing, and right before I was about to attempt to put my head under (I had elastic bands on my neck that would have been perfect), I felt a shock wave in my solar plexus. Maybe it's the same shock as you feel when you're about to get hit by a car or something, and you know it. I just couldn't go through with it.
Upon further contemplation I'm not quite sure what stopped the attempt. It was certainly the feeling of sudden shock on my solar plexus. I'm not sure if that's purely visceral SI. But I know know it would have likely have had complications due to being balloon helium.
Whatever the reason, the whole setup just felt off, and I abandoned the idea of suicide for a month or two, before finding this forum due to a resurgence of suicide interest, and choosing a preferred method.
I don't think I could do the exit bag now, after that, if I had perfect materials. It was definitely a 'what not to do' scenario.
Before I found this forum, and just going on what I'd read in the PPH, and other probably not so thorough internet resources, I bought party helium, bought the only piping I could find from Amazon, a somewhat rigid piping that meant I had to have the gas at an exact angle from my head whilst laying down for it to stay put, with sticky tack under the canister to keep it from spinning.
I got drunk, and what surprised me is that when I turned the gas on (no regulator), the gas made such a violent hissing sound that it would have been apparent two rooms off in the otherwise silent house. This was a massive red flag for me.
I'd got a Sainsbury's shopping back without holes, used black tape to fit the tubing to the bag through a hole I'd punctured through it with a pen. The tubing was taped to the gas canister rubber nozzle haphazardly.
I sat there, listening to my 'Hits of '99' mix, listening to this God awful loud hissing, and right before I was about to attempt to put my head under (I had elastic bands on my neck that would have been perfect), I felt a shock wave in my solar plexus. Maybe it's the same shock as you feel when you're about to get hit by a car or something, and you know it. I just couldn't go through with it.
Upon further contemplation I'm not quite sure what stopped the attempt. It was certainly the feeling of sudden shock on my solar plexus. I'm not sure if that's purely visceral SI. But I know know it would have likely have had complications due to being balloon helium.
Whatever the reason, the whole setup just felt off, and I abandoned the idea of suicide for a month or two, before finding this forum due to a resurgence of suicide interest, and choosing a preferred method.
I don't think I could do the exit bag now, after that, if I had perfect materials. It was definitely a 'what not to do' scenario.