example in your life where things got better?

[KiraComplex]

(please dont say "nothing" or "never", unhelpful.)

i feel like for the most part my life has gotten better since say 2016.
my relationship with my mom is the best its ever been, i broke up with my pedophile long distance ex (in 2017ish), my dad has stopped being physically and emotionally abusive, and my oldest brother loves my mom again. i stopped smoking cigarettes and moved on to weed but only a few times every few months, grades still suck but i dont care at this point. im just happier.

but at the same time things have gotten difficult. my second brother is an emotionally abusive self serving twat, i now have to take care of my grandfather who mistakes me for my mom and snaps at me, im stuck inside all day, physical school is going to be cancelled and i cant do online work with my adhd, and im desperate for a date. i feel like when something good happens something bad replaces it, its an endless cycle that i cant control and im losing hair.

sorry if i sound like hashtag first world problems but this is how i feel. im stressed. idk.

 

[Deleted member 14386]

I joined a gymnasium. Me and (old) friends did parkour regularly, we found a big old warehouse filled with crash-mats and foam pits. Spring floor etc, you could move these soft blocks around to vault over, the trampoline and trampet were right near the foam-pit so you could triple-flip into it. There was a running trampoline ending in a springboard and you just got free-range of the place for the 2-3 quid ($5ish) I went every week with actual friends.

I've grown apart from them, also they have kids and real life stuff. It was the only part of my life I felt happy.
Oh and riding a unicycle to school, the science teacher let me store it inside but got in trouble when he got found out, at prom he said (very drunk, it was his b-day) "I've smoked more bongs than you have dreads!".
Fun times.

 

[Isadeth]

I'm sorry you're still having a rough go of it with certain aspects of your life. It's not easy, because I know exactly what you're describing. I know this year has been one of the most difficult times in quite a few years and I'm ready for it to be over.

Aside from that, I'm glad you're finding joy and happiness! Not to sound full of cliches but nothing good or bad lasts forever, and without the bad we wouldn't be able to recognize the good.

My personal life isn't the worst it's ever been. I still have rough days, but in general I'm more okay/happy than not. Sometimes things that seem the worst can often end up being the best thing for us. Of course it still sucks in that moment.

The example I can give is from when I was 11. My mom was a horrific alcoholic and was finally exposed due to literally hitting a school with her vehicle and evading police. If 9/11 hadn't been going on, she would have made front page on the paper. She made the news and all of a sudden everyone knew my dark homelife. She went to jail on the day I got my first period... fantastic... but it was the slap of reality she needed to stop drinking. Of course I didn't believe it at first because I heard it time and time again. But she quit for almost 15 years. Our lives got better... it was great. Unfortunately she relapsed after all that clean time and it wasn't good, but we're slowing rebuilding our relationship and she quit again.

Things can get better, enjoy them when they do, and it's possible. ♡ I'm not sure if this was what you were looking for as far as responses go, but I tend to ramble at times lol

I wish you the best with school and your family! I know it's not easy, but nothing good or bad lasts forever. ♡

 

[BridgeJumper]

I discovered art, and it helped me get a lot better in controlling my emotions. I enjoyed painting so much, listening to the brush strokes on canvas was like a catharsis when I just wanted to stop existing. Whenever I was acutely suicidal, but well enough to stop myself from acting on it, I would paint.
I gradually learnt coping skills enough to keep me out of the hospital for at least few months at a time

But now its all going to shit because of the debilitating health condition I came down with....Back at the same old rock bottom

 

[lotus11]

When I was with my ex I was a lot happier, we were together 3 years, I was in love and he was my best friend, I guess that makes you happy

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Nothing and never ngl, I'm not helpful

I've gotten slightly better at cooking within the last year if that counts.

 

[KiraComplex]

Nothing and never ngl, I'm not helpful

I've gotten slightly better at cooking within the last year if that counts.

well think about it. life goes on and things dont stay stagnant.

 

[Lmd]

I starterd to be more social and made irl friends so I go outside often. This year I've been doing classes and they went well and now I have the oportunity to study what I already wanted. I had a boyfriend (now ex because he couldn't handle all this situation) but I was very happy and enjoyed the momments together. My relationship with my family is better than ever and I also sometimes chat with my dad about random stuff(something that we don't usually do)

Even having the life I always wanted I still feel sad, empty, listless. I don't have enough strength to go outside my bed. My exbf cut every contact with me because he said he can't date someone in this state and It fells like he left me behind and alone when I needed more him. The only thing that makes me wake up and stay active is looking for ways to stop breathing and this pissed me off because I could use all this strength in trying to stay better and focusing on the good things that happened this year but I just can't. When I try to do something useful for myself I just start crying and having an enormous amount of anxiety.

 

[KiraComplex]

I starterd to be more social and made irl friends so I go outside often. This year I've been doing classes and they went well and now I have the oportunity to study what I already wanted. I had a boyfriend (now ex because he couldn't handle all this situation) but I was very happy and enjoyed the momments together. My relationship with my family is better than ever and I also sometimes chat with my dad about random stuff(something that we don't usually do)

Even having the life I always wanted I still feel sad, empty, listless. I don't have enough strength to go outside my bed. My exbf cut every contact with me because he said he can't date someone in this state and It fells like he left me behind and alone when I needed more him. The only thing that makes me wake up and stay active is looking for ways to stop breathing and this pissed me off because I could use all this strength in trying to stay better and focusing on the good things that happened this year but I just can't. When I try to do something useful for myself I just start crying and having an enormous amount of anxiety.

im glad you find the good things, even if theres a lot of bad things. hope you feel better soon.

 

[kovkay]

In 2018 I have experimented with LSD and it was like everything around me just magically got better. I suddenly had the energy to deal with life and everything was alright. It was the best 6 months of my life.
I overused it though and got to a psychosis which led me to several hospitalizations and a post-psychosis depression followed, so I wouldn't suggest it.

 

[KiraComplex]

In 2018 I have experimented with LSD and it was like everything around me just magically got better. I suddenly had the energy to deal with life and everything was alright. It was the best 6 months of my life.
I overused it though and got to a psychosis which led me to several hospitalizations and a post-psychosis depression followed, so I wouldn't suggest it.

oh fuck lsd. im sorry. thats really tough. i hope youre doing better.

 

[Tiedie]

Last year I was actively suicidal for months. This year I have a job I love and a girl I love. I still struggle some days and that's why I'm here on SS. I'm schizophrenic so it's just a matter of time before I break. In my rational state I have set forth conditions that must be met before I decide to ctb. That makes me feel secure. I'm currently happier than ever.

 

[Georgii]

Last October I got a stable job with a schedule that I can follow.
It's kinda shitty ,pay is low and my boss is a angry asshole .But I'm still holding tight into this job by it's been a welcoming change.

 

[Konolomn]

My life gets alot better when I sleep, once awaked, every second is torture and agony so I try to sleep as much as I can but I get up after 10-12 hours and the shitiness begin until bedtime