Everything triggers my inferiority complex

[LittleMagician]

I think I am mentally fucked. I was playing a game with my boyfriend and then one random guy in the lobby said I could only win playing with my boyfriend and that I'm not good alone. A normal fucking person would've just ignored that remark from a random kid in the lobby but no, I decided to 1v1 him to prove him wrong, and guess what I fucking lost 5-2. After the round was over he said "see, told you. You've gone quiet now" MAN FUCK YOU FUCKING IDOTIC FUCKING IDIOT. And I know the only reason I'm angry is because it's true, and it fuels my inferior complex even though I know I'm not even bad at the damn game but in a fury I left the call randomly with mu boyfriend and just slammed my body on the bed. I think I have fucking issues because why did this fucking game make me have such a visceral reaction???!!! I don't know what the actual fuck is wrong with me but now I'm in such a shit mood because of a fucking game and I want to self isolate. ITS A FUCKING GAME IDK WHY IM ACTING LIKE THIS HOLY SHIT THERE IS SOMETHING FUCKING WRONG WITH ME BUT I KNOW IT ISNT JUST A GAME IT HAS A DEEPER MEANING BECAUSE FUCKING EVERYONE IN MY LIFE TREATS ME LIKE THIS EVEN A STRANGER IN A GODDAMN VIDEO GAME IM SO FUCKING USELESS I HAVE TO GET CARRIED BY MOTHERFUCKING EVERYONE AND I HAVE IMPOSTER SYNDROME BECAUSE NONE OF MY ACHIEVEMENTS EVEN IN A FUCKING STUPID GAME MEAN ANYTHING

 

[HortEr162]

Are you me? I have the same issue. Every negative comment, insult, word, anything from another person affects me so much and I always take it very personal. I end up thinking about it for weeks, months and even years. And it also ruins my mood for the day and even for the whole week (or month...)

I fucking hate this feeling and I wish I could, I dunno, react to things like a normal person would do.

But yeah, you're definitely not alone in this :')

 

[BrokenMindAndBody]

I do the same kind of things, basically. All my life. It always does feel better if you prove them wrong, though. Words have always stung me hard, though. A lot of people don't take it personally but I usually take everything personal. I've never been able to overcome a lot of that.

 

[LittleMagician]

Are you me? I have the same issue. Every negative comment, insult, word, anything from another person affects me so much and I always take it very personal. I end up thinking about it for weeks, months and even years. And it also ruins my mood for the day and even for the whole week (or month...)

I fucking hate this feeling and I wish I could, I dunno, react to things like a normal person would do.

But yeah, you're definitely not alone in this :')

THIS IS SO TRUE! And it's like very specific things too because some negative things people say I don't really care about but it's those specific triggers that really fucking irritate me

I do the same kind of things, basically. All my life. It always does feel better if you prove them wrong, though. Words have always stung me hard, though. A lot of people don't take it personally but I usually take everything personal. I've never been able to overcome a lot of that.

I know exactly how this feelings I think one of my main goals moving forward is to stop trying to prove people wrong and just live my life

 

[yowai]

thats the thing with insecurity you always look for confirmation that youre flawed and focus on the bad shit instead of just enjoying what youre doing
btw even if youre bad at games its ok not everyone has to have godly skills its enough if you just enjoy playing it lol. its a pretty normal interaction in games that have chat/multiplayer theres way worse things you could hear from a stranger in there especially as a woman lol. best thing would be to ignore people who try to piss you off or my personal favorite approach which is doing the opposite to them and trolling them by saying shit like "i love you even if you kill me" or god loves you or "ur so good at this can you teach me master" or whatever makes it funny for you lmao

 

[_soulless_]

My Emotional dysregulation ruined my life

 

[bankai]

In my case, I guess I wouldn't have even played the game. My strategy is to disengage even before I get hurt.
Try to laugh this shit off. And don't do anything you don't want to do. Don't let anyone coerce you into it anyway. That being said, if you actually wanted to play the game then live with the result. Don't beat yourself up over losing.

 

[LittleMagician]

In my case, I guess I wouldn't have even played the game. My strategy is to disengage even before I get hurt.
Try to laugh this shit off. And don't do anything you don't want to do. Don't let anyone coerce you into it anyway. That being said, if you actually wanted to play the game then live with the result. Don't beat yourself up over losing.

True I got many more wins after this post and even got ranked up, we survive <3

 

[wantingdignity]

Are you getting any therapy or medication?

I know it's easier for me to get triggered if I am already going through something. My agitation normally comes out as sensory overload or urges to self harm. My medication is finally starting to help with it a little.

I feel for you. It sucks feeling like you're out of control or not able to handle "simple" things.

 

[Hollowman]

I used to be like that. Something broke in my mind and now I could care less about what people say.

 

[ToANewWorld]

Is true some people can handle emotional conflict better than others but I am old enough to have witness plenty of "powerful" "normal" and "calibrated" people lose their shit over the smallest signs of percieved attacks.

The reality of life is if you climb high enough the money/status ladder you can be as sensitive as you like. It is only the little people that have to "manage" their feelings. Self included.

Edit :

Of course, I don't want to take away all personal responsability. You don't want to, for example, have a category 5 melt down with tears, gun play, knife play and screaming matches over being handed the wrong Starbucks coffee.

 

[ceilng_tile]

This sounds like you probably have rejection sensitive dysphoria. But also that guy is an asshole for making that comment. Regardless of whether it's true or not, why would someone make a comment like that unless they *wanted* to be hurtful? Especially when it's over a fucking game? The whole point of a game is to have fun and that guy totally ruined it for you.