everything cancels out

[unexplainedExplorer]

i'm confused, but grateful. i was chained to the confines of my house for several weeks due to extreme paranoia, deeply fearful of being harmed by anyone other than myself. i live in a really shitty place and it's always a possibility.

but now, it's mostly gone. i thought "hey, i'm going to die someday anyway. might as well enjoy what's left while i still have it, right?" and then.. poof.

i don't know how long this will last but sure. i'll take it. wish me luck while i go and live.

 

[usernamesarehard]

Good luck! I was the same way too. I live in a big city with a lot of gun violence. The possibility of being killed for no reason is there. But I learned I was miserable staying in the house all day.

Are there any state or national parks near you? Are you able to get to them? I've found going to the park is really nice. The questionable characters you have to worry about usually aren't there and I find being out in nature to be relaxing.

 

[unexplainedExplorer]

Good luck! I was the same way too. I live in a big city with a lot of gun violence. The possibility of being killed for no reason is there. But I learned I was miserable staying in the house all day.

Are there any state or national parks near you? Are you able to get to them? I've found going to the park is really nice. The questionable characters you have to worry about usually aren't there and I find being out in nature to be relaxing.

they are pretty nice, i might pay one a visit soon. i've always enjoyed being out in nature. not gonna jinx anything with this thread but good lord am i tired of these walls lol

 

[usernamesarehard]

I feel ya! I'm planning on doing school work in cafes instead of at home just to be around people and get out of the house.

 

[5_5]

that's the beauty of it. good luck!

 

[hippiedeath]

Good luck! I was the same way too. I live in a big city with a lot of gun violence. The possibility of being killed for no reason is there. But I learned I was miserable staying in the house all day.

Are there any state or national parks near you? Are you able to get to them? I've found going to the park is really nice. The questionable characters you have to worry about usually aren't there and I find being out in nature to be relaxing.

I love parks. I spend my free time there talking to the ducks and smoking cigarettes. Campfires and drumming are a couple of my joys in life.