everything but ctb

[rocksnrocks]

i've been a member here for a few years and have posted a few threads venting and what i thought would be goodbye threads. my bipolar and depression have only gotten worse month after month and i feel like i am drowning and more suicidal than ever but i can't bring myself to do it. so instead im ruining my life, im drinking and smoking 24/7, sh everywhere and badly, sleeping around, and im miserable and i know im losing myself but i cant stop because theyre the only things i can do

 

[Nightfoot]

I'm sorry your situation has deteriorated to where you only feel capable of self destruction. I hope you can find some relief.

 

[fedup1982]

I know how you feel. It feels like free will is an illusion and we're stuck on a path we don't want. Crossing roads with blindfolds on. Its scary. I hope both of us can change asap

 

[Eriktf]

worst part about mental illnes are to know you ill

its so sad that ppl suffer like this

hope you get better

 

[Feldsparc]

worst part about mental illnes are to know you ill

its so sad that ppl suffer like this

hope you get better

Very true. When I didn't know I had bpd i was so happy. The worries started after i got to know about it