everyone will be better off without me

[justfloating]

I never used to understand why suicidal people only felt like a burden to others, and that they would be doing the world a favour by killing themselves.

All I do is cause pain to the people around me. They stick around me until they're fed up or they find better.

I want him to be happy and although this may cause him pain at first, he will be better off in the long run. He doesn't deserve to have someone like me in his life. I hope in the future he realises that I've made the right choice.

 

[Sensei]

Feelings of guilt are a very common symptom for depression, so are you sure you think 100 % rationally now? I assume the person you talk about is your partner. Don't you think that he would have left you by now if he thought he would be better off without you? I can tell that you're in pain, but I suggest you sleep on it. Perhaps the situation isn't as bad as you think it is right now? I don't want to dismiss your pain, I just don't want it to overwhelm you

 

[justfloating]

Feelings of guilt are a very common symptom for depression, so are you sure you think 100 % rationally now? I assume the person you talk about is your partner. Don't you think that he would have left you by now if he thought he would be better off without you? I can tell that you're in pain, but I suggest you sleep on it. Perhaps the situation isn't as bad as you think it is right now? I don't want to dismiss your pain, I just don't want it to overwhelm you

The person I'm talking about is my ex. I love him so much even with the way he has treated and continues to treat me. He isn't talking to me at the moment because I have been suicidal and he finds it too much, I care about him more than anything and by continuing to put him through this stress isn't fair on him.

This isn't an impulsive thing and I have thought about it for a long time, my future is bleak and not one that I want. I am fed up of the pain.

 

[Sensei]

I see. I understand that this is about more than your ex. It's not really my business, but why do you feel that your future is bleak?

 

[justfloating]

I see. I understand that this is about more than your ex. It's not really my business, but why do you feel that your future is bleak?

I don't feel I will ever be as happy as I once was. I literally had everything I needed and wanted for the first time and I fucked it all up. everything that used to make me happy is gone now.

 

[Epsilon0]

Unless you are a killer or a psychopatic abuser, I doubt "everyone will be better off without you".

The fact that you are concerned about your ex's well being and wish him well indicates you are a good person and that your heart is in the right place.

In the words of Def Leppard "love bites, love bleeds"... Go easy on yourself!

 

[Sensei]

I don't feel I will ever be as happy as I once was. I literally had everything I needed and wanted for the first time and I fucked it all up. everything that used to make me happy is gone now.

I feel you. I've made many mistakes and lost much, not the least love, but I won't give up just yet, and I don't think you should do that either. I don't know what you've lost, but many things can be rebuilt or replaced. Maybe you'll be able to repair your relationship with your ex, and if not, maybe you'll meet someone new? If you've lost a job, maybe you can find new employment or see it as an opportunity to try another kind of job? I know, it's difficult as hell, but it's probably worth trying before deciding to end it all. Only you know your whole situation and what's best for you to do, but I think it would be a good idea to wait before you do something which can't be undone.

 

[Jean4]

How about this. You are part of our family here, and we are all lucky to know you and have you in our lives. Your life matters to us.

 

[justfloating]

Unless you are a killer or a psychopatic abuser, I doubt "everyone will be better off without you".

The fact that you are concerned about your ex's well being and wish him well indicates you are a good person and that your heart is in the right place.

In the words of Def Leppard "love bites, love bleeds"... Go easy on yourself!

I am a good person and all I want to do is make him happy, but all I am doing is hurting him and making his life worse. He once said to me that he wanted to jump in front of a train, he is not suicidal and I don't believe he meant it, but he should never feel like that because of my situation.

How about this. You are part of our family here, and we are all lucky to know you and have you in our lives. Your life matters to us.

no one wants anyone to die but everyone would get over it quick

 

[Epsilon0]

I understand what you mean. You will notice that many here struggle with feelings of guilt, myself being one of them.

If it helps you in any way, know you are not alone in this boat sailing across the Styx.

 

[justfloating]

I understand what you mean. You will notice that many here struggle with feelings of guilt, myself being one of them.

If it helps you in any way, know you are not alone in this boat sailing across the Styx.

its strange because I never used to feel the guilt of how my being who I am hurts others. I finally truly understand what it feels like to only be a burden to people

 

[Itzyagirl]

Tbh wit u I'm ina similar situation but ur not a burden n Despite what you may think of you kill yourself you will devastate the people around you no doubt about that. However, I'm not here to encourage or discourage suicide but I will encourage you to think hard and long for some time about how you feel and weigh your decision make the decision that will make you at peace not others make the decision for your self because after all this is your life If u need anyone to talk to I'm here