Hi!
1st off I do not know your age nor am I nosey so with that said, Iam 66, reference point, and all through eh years and decades I have NEVER EVER "fit" in period. I am very small built for a human male and guys never wanted to do anything with me as I looked to "wimpy" and gals, along the same lines, did not think that I was "manly" enough to be seen with.
Now that was the 1970", BUT, BUT let me shed a little light on how things developed for me. As I started jobs and refined myself and constant tweaking things got better for me. Now part of it was just the aspect that after everyone, including me, grew out of the teenage mentality. Also really expanding my presence, work folks, folks I saw shopping that worked in the stores, and so on, I grew into finding myself and liking who I was.
Somewhere in my mid 20's gals REALLY started asking me out. I found a good circle of friends where personality, and brains were the most important aspects.
I consider you a good friend here on SS, and I wish only the best for you always.
Something just popped in my head, I used to always tell myself, never say never, and the idiots will not get me down. I was a good-hearted soul and so are you.
I am not being snotty or anything by saying this, but I 100% believe in YOU and giving some time hopefully everything will work out good for you.
Sending you lots of well wishes, hugs, kindness and the knowledge that you are a very important soul with so much not only to give society but yourself.
Always around,
Walter