Venting Everyday is just another emotional roller coaster

[Bunchie487]

I don't know if its bipolar related or what but every day it feels like I'm fighting inner and outer demons. I'm having to deal with everyone else's problems while having a literal war inside my brain every day and here lately it's gotten worse and I've fallen out of my routine that I JUST was getting used to. I just want a normal happy life, is that so much to ask for? Is it so much to ask to be stable for once? All my heart wants is peace but my brain refuses to allow that, or it will for a while till it all comes crashing down and my brain says "SIKE!"

It's so tiring I just want to be normal. I just want to have motivation. I just want things to be right.