iamsuffering02
New Member
- Apr 28, 2026
- 4
Everyday I sleep well but still feel tired it feels like i constant feeling of exhaustion because nothing ever feels like it goes my way. At work I have a horrible manager and even thought the pay is good my manager is so rude to me he acts like a fucking man child and mind you i'm still a young adult so essentially a grown ass man is yelling at a young adult over small mistakes. Today I called out because I had something happening related to my family and I texted my manager before my shift letting him know I had to call out even though the last couple days i was trying to find someone to cover my shift. He reads my message and doesn't respond to me. At this point i don't even care i'm done caring about others i'm done trying i just want to die honestly but I can't because i'm addicted to the feeling of hope but it's so hard to feel it anymore. Yesterday I went to a small amusement park with my gf and someone else. I spent more than a hundred dollars on tickets and after 2 rides i got sick and threw up so we had to leave since they had no bathrooms. These might seem like small inconveniences but everyday it's something new I can't just have a good day everyday i feel exhausted and when i try to be productive my day is ruined. Im manipulative because I want people to show me love without me having to ask so i manipulate my gf in subtle ways in order for her to show me affection. I have extreme insecurity and jealousy when other people recieve attention that i shut down. that might not seem as bad as what other people on here have going on but to me its such a shitty feeling knowing i work so hard in order for things to never go my way
