Venting everyday feels like shit

[.koocain]

everyday i wake up hoping it will be a day worth living but no day has ever felt worth it and doesn't seem like that will happen.

i give living my life a chance everyday and something will always ruin it no matter what. dkif im the problem but i cant exist living with this pain eatibg inside of me, it gets worse by the day. I want to end it, however i'm scared of failing,i want to get it over and done with and not have the fear of still being alive after my attempt i can't face anyone.

 

[Jadedmeursault9]

What exactly is the pain? Is thoughts? A burning feeling in your stomach? Is it memories? Regrets? Words said? Words unsaid?

 

[.koocain]

What exactly is the pain? Is thoughts? A burning feeling in your stomach? Is it memories? Regrets? Words said? Words unsaid?

mostly thoughts of what couldve been, every time i made a mistake that replays and things people have done to me. its drained the whole life of me i dont even have conversation left in me