Venting Every time I’m around people lately I cry/tear up

[soulkitty]

The past couple weeks I've only been around people irl 3 times and every time I see people I either start straight up sobbing or I tear up. I have no idea why, I feel so unstable. I feel like that's really not normal. Today I asked my friend that I live with if she wants to do art or watch anime with me, she said she was down to do art and I said to let me know whenever she's ready to do that, but she never let me know, I think maybe she forgot or doesn't want to? I'm not sure ahhhh. I feel guilty for asking. I'm just so lonely and have been extremely isolated. I'm thinking I need to maybe go to a psychiatric hospital I don't know. I just did an appointment to get my meds refilled after 2 months of not having them so I hope they help, although I don't know when I'll be able to pick them up. I don't think I'm acting like a normal person. My thoughts feel strange. I just want to be hugged or held so badly

 

[Dayrain]

Today I asked my friend that I live with if she wants to do art or watch anime with me, she said she was down to do art and I said to let me know whenever she's ready to do that, but she never let me know, I think maybe she forgot or doesn't want to? I'm not sure ahhhh.

Yea, I know that, maybe these activities are just not that important for you friend as they are for you. If something is important for us, we tend to take it personal if it is not valued I believe.

 

[etherealgoddess]

The past couple weeks I've only been around people irl 3 times and every time I see people I either start straight up sobbing or I tear up. I have no idea why, I feel so unstable. I feel like that's really not normal. Today I asked my friend that I live with if she wants to do art or watch anime with me, she said she was down to do art and I said to let me know whenever she's ready to do that, but she never let me know, I think maybe she forgot or doesn't want to? I'm not sure ahhhh. I feel guilty for asking. I'm just so lonely and have been extremely isolated. I'm thinking I need to maybe go to a psychiatric hospital I don't know. I just did an appointment to get my meds refilled after 2 months of not having them so I hope they help, although I don't know when I'll be able to pick them up. I don't think I'm acting like a normal person. My thoughts feel strange. I just want to be hugged or held so badly

I've had this. I've felt this when I'm sinking a lot lower into depression. Being reminded of my depression would make me cry in front of others when before, I would be completely distracted if there were people around me.

 

[Mirrory Me]

what, you live with someone you do not interact with daily? What kind of art you do?

 

[soulkitty]

what, you live with someone you do not interact with daily? What kind of art you do?

Yes, I know it's kind of pathetic I feel like an awful person but I self isolate a lot in my room, I'm just really scared of people and the depression is so bad it's hard to do even simple tasks. I'm going to move away soon so they don't have to deal with me anymore. I like to draw anime style stuff mostly haha

 

[Mirrory Me]

Yes, I know it's kind of pathetic I feel like an awful person but I self isolate a lot in my room, I'm just really scared of people and the depression is so bad it's hard to do even simple tasks. I'm going to move away soon so they don't have to deal with me anymore. I like to draw anime style stuff mostly haha

Well, that's not always the healthiest option- being exposed and vunerable can be hard at times, sometimes we like to keep ourself safe, in a bubble where we can daydream, doing things that bring pleasure and feel fulfilling in their own way. I myself have developed imaginary friends with the help of art, it's quite interesting, but I understand your desire to communicate with living people as well.