RedFruit
Red Fruit.
- Feb 17, 2026
- 109
I don't know how I manage to do it. The last three relationships I've had have had the same theme ongoing. I pick men who are perfect for me physically. It starts off great. Then, somehow me being an attractive woman gets me fucked over. I like to go out, go to raves, have FUN. I have male friends that have no interest in me and vice versa. I make money from older men online (without showing my body) and end up paying for everything. Even though I'm a decent partner and try my best to be the best partner I can be- I get fucked. I was going to CTB but I decided to go on the dating apps to see if I could find someone to try again with. One last time. I find someone who I immediately connect with and we get into a relationship VERY fast. Now it's all up in the air because I want to go to a rave without him. Not even that I WANT to. I bought the ticket before we ever even started talking. I'm so sick of picking people who I fall in line with and they just fucking break my heart. Like if you love me, wouldn't you want to work through your jealousy? But no. He's talking about how he can't deal with all the attention I get and I'm stuck thinking about how I'll never be loved. Never be happy. Never have a good life. I'm so over this shit that I'm about to be at my breaking point. It's like I can never progress in life due to being in jealousy fueled relationships. I can't be alone through, either. Just fucked all around. It sucks.