
Chisel
My dreams where I live. My life is my nightmares
- Sep 27, 2021
- 63
Seems like I'm having this glaringly pointed out to me on a daily basis. In almost every waking action I have.
Slowly getting to the realisation that I'm just unwanted and unliked by everyone.
Thing is I didn't choose this.
I don't want to be this way, I just am.
I try to be better and more like other people.
And I can for a while, when I'm focusing on it, but thats only temporary and I cannot sustain that forever eventually you loose focus and revert back to same old same old.
Don't really want to CTB I wish somehow there was a magic wand and I could magic myself to be better and like others but I'm not. Im me and I end up in the same old traps being unwanted and disliked.
Slowly getting to the realisation that I'm just unwanted and unliked by everyone.
Thing is I didn't choose this.
I don't want to be this way, I just am.
I try to be better and more like other people.
And I can for a while, when I'm focusing on it, but thats only temporary and I cannot sustain that forever eventually you loose focus and revert back to same old same old.
Don't really want to CTB I wish somehow there was a magic wand and I could magic myself to be better and like others but I'm not. Im me and I end up in the same old traps being unwanted and disliked.