Discussion Even tho you are suicidal does the thought of your mother losing you even made you rethink your decision?

[Himalayan]

Being honest? No.

 

[DeathSleep]

No. I haven't talked to my mother in quite some time. It seems she doesn't care much about me anymore. She barely knows who I am. She'd think I am selfish for doing it anyways. She'll get over it.

 

[tora]

yes, I've been having a lot of doubt recently because I don't want to leave my mom :( I just FaceTimed her today to say goodbye (since I'm dying tomorrow or Tuesday) and it hurt so badly when she told me she wants to go to the beach with me again soon and I couldn't tell her that I won't be alive long enough for that. I've been crying everyday for the past week over her, I haven't finished my note yet because every time I try writing to her I break down in tears. I know I'm the worst person in the world for killing myself because of how much it'll break her heart.

 

[lessthanperfect]

My mother is a narcissistic asshole so no, but I hate myself for even considering suicide because I know it'll hurt my sister.

Pertaining to my mother though, I do kind of wish I wasn't suicidal (don't we all) because I know she'll use my death to gain sympathy points and paint me as a selfish child who was ungrateful for the life God provided me. However, the threat of a continued life of torture if I don't CTB is enough for me to accept that I'll be disrespected in death.

 

[cardboard_house]

Yes, it's one of the reasons I haven't ctb yet. I've seen her crying when listening to stories of parents who have lost their kids and I can't bear to put her through that.

 

[SpencerSees]

Never. She represents everything wrong with this world. Issues only mattering when she can use it against you. Luring you in with a sense of compromise, like your wants and needs actually matter, just to crush them the first opportunity she gets. I could go on and on. I thought about dissappearing without leaving her note, she doesn't deserve closure.

 

[Archness]

N O .
If she feels bad and cries, that'd be too bad.

Yeah, with people who'd "miss" me, I have the attitude of "Oh well, too bad" with their feelings about this decision I may make. But, let's just say it is especially the case with mother.