iDontKnowWhat

iDontKnowWhat

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Oct 12, 2023
70
Then...

Tomorrow morning I will leave...

I thank everyone here for everything. You helped me a lot! Only you understand me. We understand each other here.

I feel a lot of pain knowing that my parents and my brother will be devastated, but I can't live like this. No more!

For those who are curious about which method I will use, I will leave the thread at the end, where I explain the method I will use.

Admins can delete my account after 6am. Until then, I still want to interact on the site. You can rest assured that I will delete everything related to the site: emails, search bar (in fact I only use an incognito browser to enter here) etc.

I wanted to do a video call with all of you, but I don't think that would be safe for the website and for you either. So I virtually say goodbye to you all.


I wrote a text trying to explain what I feel:

"Totally lost in my own vibe,
Nothing else is hitting the same,
Like, what was I even thinking?
I just gotta hit reset to break free.

Feeling like I'm missing a piece of me,
Who am I, even?
I got caught up in the void,
How did things get so twisted?

I'm just not alright,
And that's not gonna change,
I'm down to one last play,
So over it,

I keep daydreaming about an epic finale,
My mind's on a loop about the grand exit,
Stuck in this maze, feeling zilch,
And yeah, I played myself.

Craving the fix that just won't click,
This can't be life,
Can't deal with this nightmare,
I'm getting filled up with nothingness,
Till it's straight-up torture.

I used to be me, now that dude's checked out,
Time's flown by,
The playlist's ended,
Only I can pull myself up,
But it's like, so overdue.

I'm facing off with the mirror,
To scratch out the me I turned into,
Wipe my own slate,
As the final sleep creeps in.

Today's the day I find who I am,
Hitting the restart button,
Bringing whatever, even if it hurts,
Today's the curtain call.

Thought I had more lines in my script,
But this is it...
Peace out..."



 
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𝗟𝗼𝗻𝗲𝗹𝘆

I'm an idiot sandwich.
Oct 28, 2023
197
Whatever you decide to do I wish you find the peace and freedom you're searching for. I also hope your family understands your struggles and pain and that they can let go and find their peace in this dark time. 🫂
 
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Ruma

Ruma

Experienced
Dec 26, 2021
250
Goodbye & Goodluck! Wishing you a swift and peaceful passing x
 
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meioalguem

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Sep 3, 2021
99
Espero que tenha uma boa hora. Uma pena não temos tempo mais para se conhecer... gostaria de saber mais sobre você.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I hope that you find freedom from all suffering, best wishes.
 

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