Endless tremor from anxiety(GAD)/PTSD

[Helio_Helio]

I'm so gosh darn done with all the physical effects of my PTSD, I can't stop trembling.

Nearly every moment of my life is full of times where I feel I need to crap my pants because of this rootless anxiety. I can hardly type right without my fingers trembling off to another key. I'm just so damn sick of it.

I swear of all reasons I leave this damned life, this is one of many because I work with my hands and this drives me insane…

I can't stop myself from feeling this anxiety, that's enough already, but to not be able to do anything without feeling like you're about to literally shit your pants and your very core and every limb trembling???????

The hell did I do to deserve this garbage of an experience?????

 

[art355]

Have you looked into medications that can help with anxiety? Some are: Propranolol, Gabapentin and Topiramate. They have helped me some. Just a suggestion.

 

[Helio_Helio]

Have you looked into medications that can help with anxiety? Some are: Propranolol, Gabapentin and Topiramate. They have helped me some. Just a suggestion.

I have… my doctor won't give it to me because they (multuple) are so convinced I am finer than I am… I want to cry because I feel so helpless from this

 

[art355]

I hope you can find some better medical care

 

[Helio_Helio]

This is just.. a note…

I can't find a job due to my autism (I keep getting discrimination).

Disability support won't come down. Likely not for another year.

I can't pay rent for those reasons.

I have a bunch of other health reasons.

I just don't think I can do this anymore. I hope I can say goodbye at the end of this month guys <333 I'm happy to end it all. But I have friends who wouldn't want to see me go… so I'm just betting it on if I can get lucky and find another job before this month ends hah…

I'm still super energectic though!! Go go,

I always knew I would end it when I seem most empowered. Hah.

I hope you can find some better medical care

I hope too. But it's been years…. America, what can you say eh? Hahahaha