Venting End of a 6 year relationship

[terribleguy]

There is something insanely wrong with me, I just seem to fuck up everything and everyone. I miss her, so much. What's fucked is that it's my fault she's gone. I did this to her, I have no self control. I need to CTB.

I can't even bring myself to check her social media, I want to so bad but I can't, if i see something I shouldn't then I might make a heat of the moment decision, and I'm trying to do it right this time. I just wish I could hug her, I wish I could cry into her arms. Funny thing is in the 6 years I spent right by her, I never did that once. I really don't think we were meant to be, but I can't just forget it all. She gave me back my jacket before it all went to shit, it still smells like her. Basically torturing myself sniffing that shit.

I don't even wanna be with her, we're too toxic, but I want to be next to her for her rest of my life. I don't even know if I know what love actually is. My range of emotions is so limited, I barely know anything. Fuck my life.

If anyone is in some sort of similar situation. End of a very long term relationship, I'm happy to talk if you are. This shit was over 25% of my life. It feels like I know nothing else but her.

 

[At The Bus Stop]

There is something insanely wrong with me, I just seem to fuck up everything and everyone. I miss her, so much. What's fucked is that it's my fault she's gone. I did this to her, I have no self control. I need to CTB.

I can't even bring myself to check her social media, I want to so bad but I can't, if i see something I shouldn't then I might make a heat of the moment decision, and I'm trying to do it right this time. I just wish I could hug her, I wish I could cry into her arms. Funny thing is in the 6 years I spent right by her, I never did that once. I really don't think we were meant to be, but I can't just forget it all. She gave me back my jacket before it all went to shit, it still smells like her. Basically torturing myself sniffing that shit.

I don't even wanna be with her, we're too toxic, but I want to be next to her for her rest of my life. I don't even know if I know what love actually is. My range of emotions is so limited, I barely know anything. Fuck my life.

If anyone is in some sort of similar situation. End of a very long term relationship, I'm happy to talk if you are. This shit was over 25% of my life. It feels like I know nothing else but her.

Me and another guy started talking on Discord - kind of trying to break that stereotypical patriarchal society norm of men not being able to comfort other men. More than happy for you to reach out to me on Discord as well if you wanted to chat more frequently or have more accessible conversations. Happy for you to PM me on here (although I don't think you can due to your post count) if you prefer.

We're both in the same boat, a long term relationship, and struggling to find the next steps afterwards, but we communicate and create a non-judgement space for each other just feel and be sad. Supporting each other where we may lack it otherwise.

I hope you're doing okay though, myself and SaSu are always happy to listen. Much Love

 

[terribleguy]

Me and another guy started talking on Discord - kind of trying to break that stereotypical patriarchal society norm of men not being able to comfort other men. More than happy for you to reach out to me on Discord as well if you wanted to chat more frequently or have more accessible conversations. Happy for you to PM me on here (although I don't think you can due to your post count) if you prefer.

We're both in the same boat, a long term relationship, and struggling to find the next steps afterwards, but we communicate and create a non-judgement space for each other just feel and be sad. Supporting each other where we may lack it otherwise.

I hope you're doing okay though, myself and SaSu are always happy to listen. Much Love

Sure man, add me on discord, its zachonceagain.