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unabletocope
I'd like to shut down
- Mar 13, 2024
- 728
Embarrassment leads to suicide. All my life I have been an embarrassment - my embarrassment has destroyed me in life, throughout my life in periods where I can never be taken seriously. When I was small I picked up names, was more outwardly silly, made more of an outward effort than most people. this made me not get on, made me look uncool. When I got bigger I slipped up and hit on people in ways that made me look embarrassing, I pushed for someone that made me fall out harder. If I hadn't tried to do that things could have worked out better, trying to juggle getting on with someone while trying to get with the girl they also like in front of them was pretty dumb. I seem to go for what is most embarrassing by default, I am the most embarrassing person alive and I am going to kill myself, I think because my mental health team is aware of me and my previous overdoses/hospital admissions they are wary of me and can argue they have at least tried to take me seriously, maybe I have fucked up my plans to commit suicide forever but who knows, anyone can be pushed and I know I will never be taken seriously in life, I may be the most embarrassing person alive but I'm set on killing myself
I'm also waiting for SN to come through and I have a horrible feeling I have been scammed, my life continues to fuck up and I want nothing more at this point than to just die for good
I'm also waiting for SN to come through and I have a horrible feeling I have been scammed, my life continues to fuck up and I want nothing more at this point than to just die for good
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