Embarrassed

[painoflife]

I'm actually so ashamed of myself for being part of this forum for so long. I don't feel strong for carrying on, I don't feel like I am giving something a chance or any of them positive ways people try and spin it. I feel stupid and like I am punishing myself by prolonging the inevitable and also weak for either not going through with plans or failing them.
I have given recovery a try, I have done everything that the "mental health team" tell me but deep down I know things just won't ever get better for me and I feel like I will never be able to fit into the world around me. I wish I cared less about others who would be left behind, that is the hardest thoughts for me.

 

[EternalDreams]

I feel the same way, it's really rough. Hugs.

 

[AshersGirl]

It's hard to ctb. You have nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed about, but our brains are wicked little self torture devices and like to push a negative self rhetoric on us, which only serves to make us feel worse

Nobody here should judge you for however long you've been a member. It's not a contest. We all are right here with you in the struggle. X