The last few days have been pure horror, and especially today has been riddled with panic attacks. I can't get over certain things that happened, and after so many months, I'm done trying and waiting for a miracle that somehow makes my escapades worthwhile. Problem is, I have really bad SI when it comes to anything, and even when the pain is overwhelming me and my desire to CTB is overly strong, I can't seem to get myself to properly do anything. Despite that, I know I can't keep this going for much longer… I hate every bit of the feelings I suffer every single day.
Guns are outlawed in my country and very difficult to come by, so that's out of the picture. I just don't know what to do, is there any way that can be acquired and is as much painless as possible to go through with?
Guns are outlawed in my country and very difficult to come by, so that's out of the picture. I just don't know what to do, is there any way that can be acquired and is as much painless as possible to go through with?
