you shouldn’t encourage ppl
I'm so sorry that life has led you to wanting to do this. Try contacting a suicide hotline, a doctor, or even talking to some friends before making any drastic decisions. I, for one, am glad that I'm still alive right now despite desperately wanting to die a few weeks ago (although I, admittedly, still want to die a tiny bit right now). It might help you.
Just a piece of advice: don't do anything too risky. Many methods could cause to life changing damages to your body, like paralysis or other scary conditions that you don't want to have. Actually, most
methods can possibly lead to life changing damages, so be careful if you do decide to CTB. Remember to do thorough research before taking action. I still suggest attempting to get yourself some help first though, since it may change your life for the better. If you actually end up improving, then you'll be glad that you didn't CTB.