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Apricity

Apricity

Wizard
Jul 27, 2021
642
I'm crazy close. I might try tonight with nitrogen. If i don't write back within 90 days, consider me gone. @hotelbeneathground you were my best friend here. I hope you find happiness and don't end up like me.

I say 90 days because idk how long they'll hold me if I'm caught.
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
Thank you, man. Fuck, this is really painful. :'( I can't lie, I don't want you to do it, but I know your suffering is truly unbearable.

How drunk are you? What if you mess up the attempt? :nomouth:
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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Are you very drunk? What if you mess up the attempt? @Apricity
 
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Apricity

Apricity

Wizard
Jul 27, 2021
642
I won't. I set the flow meter sober. All I have to do is turn it on, kind of like I have to do you lol
 
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motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
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I won't. I set the flow meter sober. All I have to do is turn it on, kind of like I have to do you lol
Fuck, I'm not cut out for this :aw:
 
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LastLoveLetter

LastLoveLetter

Persephone
Mar 28, 2021
654
I am so sorry for all the heartache you have suffered @Apricity. You never deserved to be abandoned and cheated on by your wife when you were in pain and suffering. You should have been loved and supported, not discarded.

I am sorry it has come to this point for you, that you have to contend with such physical and psychological anguish.

There is no shame in changing your mind and postponing your plans for another day - death isn't going anywhere. However, if you do decide to proceed, I truly hope you find peace from your pain.

Sending hugs to you whatever you choose to do, and to @hotelbeneathground too. I am glad you have such a wonderful, supportive friend here :heart:
 
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Apricity

Apricity

Wizard
Jul 27, 2021
642
She video called me crying, it made me so weak. I laid with her for a bit, then went to try the bag after she fell asleep. Started puking from drinking so much, and couldn't even turn my tank on. I'm such a failure i can't even die how I want to.
 
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kurisutinabestgirl

kurisutinabestgirl

Kurisu is best girl
Oct 14, 2021
83
Hey man, wish you peace.
Also, wish you a good intoxicated time, I found that it's always during alcohol's influence when my true feeling's come to the surface!
In conclusion, I wish you peace :)
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry you are suffering so much. If you decide to leave, then I hope you find peace.
 
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