Drugs to ease the act of committing suicide

[LoveTakesManyForms]

Hi all, hope you're as well as can be.

So, it seems I am in a position that I cannot escape. I've survived utterly relentless suicidal depression for many years now, and have reached the End, which is both a relief and problematic.
The reason it is problematic is that my suicide method options have been whittled down to but a few that may take longer than I'd like; I'd prefer fatal overdose or firearm, however I don't have access to either, and cannot obtain access either due to lack of funding, health problems, and prior mental health history.

Hence the question I am asking: what prescription or OTC medication(s) are recommended to aid in successfully committing the act itself i.e. to help with panic/prevent abandoning the act?
It is important that I don't panic and botch the act, landing me in hospital in an even worse position. The calmer I am, the more clean the death, and I will finally be at peace.

Thanks very much for your time and effort, I wish you all well, regardless of your future endeavours.

 

[peach75]

something like this doesn't exist

 

[marinekiwi]

Pretty much the only OTC to help with that are sleeping agents such as benadryl, to make you drowsy.

 

[Someone123]

It's an interesting question but I agree that there may not be any drugs that can help- just your train of thought, what you think about at the time will probably make the biggest difference- mot much consolation when most of us are under so much stress that organizing our thoughts is more difficult than usual.

 

[Darkover]

olanzapine will knock you out with a reasonable small amount like 200mg within 5 mins

 

[bed]

benzos